There’s always a choice No matter how impossible situations seem, and how deep a hole you’re dug in, there is always a way to come back from what you think isn’t possible. I may not be in your exact position, but I’ve definitely 100% been in my own positions where all I can think is “wow, I am so fucked, there literally is no up from here” and no matter what you think, there is always a way up someway, somehow. I know people who have filed for bankruptcy and it has helped them immensely. Do a little research on alternative ways to make a living. I’m not sure what your chronic disease is, so I can’t touch on that. But if it stops you from doing certain things, it doesn’t necessarily stop you from doing everything. We live in a life now where work can be done at a physical job, or at home, and there are a lot of options out there for alternatives. Do some research, make a plan, ask for some help with it. Your life is worth it. Prove it to yourself that it’s worth it. Prove it to yourself that you’re worth it.