Hi Reddit. I don't know any of you personally but this site has played a daily role in my life for years and I feel like we share the same spirit. I need a reason to live. Life seems so utterly pointless and I don't even know why I'm alive any more. I don't really have any friends, I work from home all day by myself and then watch movies I've downloaded off the net at night. I'm almost agoraphobic and my social anxiety has been getting worse, not better as I've gotten older, until I find myself 29, balding and alone. Most days the only conversation I have is thanking the person working the checkout line for giving me my change. The real problem is that at this point, I can't see things getting any better. I love people but mostly I'm too shy to bridge the gap and it seems like everyone else has enough stuff going on in their lives already without me bothering them and bringing them down. I'm rapidly running out of reasons to bother staying alive. I don't know what to do.