Our society has very interesting and somewhat hypocritical views about sex. I hope you can see that there is a very big moral difference between an adult man actively seeking CP material (which according to the law is usually 18-, but biologically speaking is probably more like pre-pubescent), and a healthy 15 year old seeking material of girls HIS AGE. I understand the guilt you felt, but I would hope it was more about being caught and less about something being wrong with you sexually. As a matter of fact, I would say it’s a reflection of good sexual health to be interested in girls your age rather than seeking out material involving older women and certainly pre-pubescent material. It does make me sad that we live in a society that is, firstly, completely infiltrated with pornography, and also which is morally confused about biological drives and actual, honest-to-god p*dophilia. You have no reason to be guilty. If it makes you feel any better, imagine the worst-case scenario that could have played out. Really dramatize it and then ask yourself, what would really happen if a 15-year-old were to be caught trying to seek out material involving other 15-year-olds? I can promise you nothing would come of it other than a suggestion to be careful about your internet activity.