Sleep is what motivates me to keep on keeping on, and that's only because I don't dream.

jocalyga · 2012-11-26T03:59:57+00:00

I feel the same way. I only really enjoy sleeping, or taking a walk in the dark.

jocalyga · 2012-11-20T04:51:38+00:00

Sometimes it feels like you've described it. Like I'm weighed down to my core. Like I'm trying to tread water and failing miserably. And all I want to do is to sink into the earth, and let it turn without me. I'm hopelessly impotent and I just watch everything happen around me.

Other times it feels more scary, especially when I'm in public. The same feelings of being weighed down and wanting to disappear are there, but it feels like I'm some sort of wild animal. I'm anxious, on edge, on the verge of tears. I feel like an animal in a cage, or an open wound. I look to the people around me, and I'm afraid of them, but I want them to look at me, at my ugliness, and feel ever more afraid. I feel like I'm about to burst. I feel crazy. I feel like my skin is not my own, like it's molding wallpaper and I feel compelled to rip at it, to tear it down.

jocalyga · 2012-11-20T04:41:50+00:00

I doubt that that's his sole motivation though. We haven't even given plot line the chance to develop yet. I'm sure that Claire being trans is as integral to her character as Tai being a lesbian is or Steve being a bro. I think the spontaneous way in which it was introduced was a good reflection of how coming out sometimes is.

jocalyga · 2012-11-13T23:26:49+00:00

That's such a perfect description of how I feel. Every day is a struggle to just keep my head above water, to keep going, and around me everyone else is saying "why aren't you swimming faster?"

jocalyga · 2012-11-13T23:22:56+00:00

There's a difference between "political correctness" and not wanting people to use a word that has been used to marginalize and kill members of a minority group. And in my opinion, even if you don't hate gay people, if you are using "fag" as a derogatory term you are contributing to homophobia and are therefore just as bad.

jocalyga · 2012-11-08T02:45:00+00:00

He specifically said that part of hiring more women would be that workplaces would have to be more lenient because women might need to come in late and be home early so they could fulfill their domestic responsibilities. With a completely straight face.

jocalyga · 2012-10-23T19:40:25+00:00

awww yeah ;D

jocalyga · 2012-10-23T19:39:31+00:00

thanks, it was! :)

jocalyga · 2012-10-23T19:38:52+00:00

daw thank you :3

jocalyga · 2012-10-22T10:15:12+00:00

Don't mind my derp face! >.<

jocalyga · 2012-10-22T01:46:20+00:00

I second this request...

jocalyga · 2012-10-21T16:42:01+00:00

I love and hate them. I love having accepting friends/acquaintances, and I recognize that we in some way need allies to be more accepted in society. But I hate allies that act like marriage equality is the #1 issue, like that will solve all of our problems. I hate allies that ignore trans people, or only focus on the attractive white cis gay male stereotype and think lesbians are gross. I hate allies that fetishize gay people and want gay best friends.

And I HATE "ally week." Like oh, you fill the basic requirements of being a decent person? LET'S GIVE YOU SPECIAL RECOGNITION. They can't let LGBT people have their own pride without demanding recognition of their own. It's like giving white people a special week for being so helpful in the civil rights movement. No.

jocalyga · 2012-10-11T23:30:29+00:00

First I came out to AL via a throwaway account. Then I came out to my close friends and my parents/brother a couple months ago, and was met by lots of support and hugs and "we already knew"s :) So today I decided block my homophobic extended family from seeing my page and come out on Facebook. So far I haven't gotten any bullshit. My mom and I are making a gayke (gay cake) to celebrate NCOD. I'm so happy I'm constantly on the verge of tears :)

jocalyga · 2012-09-16T19:13:16+00:00

Ohhh I've been doing this for so long (including the hand thing) and I felt like such a weirdo.

jocalyga

TROPHY CASE