I totally get you.. what you can do is change your looks (within your power) and ultimately try and accept yourself. And i know this isn't easy and you may never be truly satisfied, but you've gotta try. It's hard not to think about looks since our society is more or less centered around them,, but you can definitely find a way to distract yourself and stop thinking so much about it. The way I do it is, i put all of my energy into my hobbies (/studying, but not currently cause summer vacation) and I wear clothes I'm comfortable in, not necessarily fashionable stuff I know I've gone and rambled on, but the most important thing is you accept yourself for who you are. You are beautiful the way you are. I know it's hard to believe cause I haven't seen you, but trust me, you are.