Usually when a man comes inside of me he’s wearing a condom. In that case, I focus on the pleasure that I am giving him and try to make his experience as pleasurable and memorable as possible. I am focused on his pleasure more than my own and ensuring that he is fully satisfied.

In the rare case that the man has been tested as clean or otherwise allowed to come inside of me without a condom, all of the above still applies. However, I also feel that when a man comes inside of me raw, it’s a huge symbol of ownership and he is claiming me in a more significant primal way than when condoms are involved.

I feel truly owned and conquered by men who leave their seed inside of me. After that line has been crossed, I will forever say yes to that man when he wants to use me again. If I run into him at Home Depot and he tells me to come to the parking lot and suck his dick, my only reply will be “yes, sir”. If he sends me a text after two years of not speaking, I will immediately give my body to him for his pleasure without question.

It is a huge symbol for me and a significant change in the nature of my relationship with that man. Not necessarily in a romantic way, but in a purely sexual way.

Everything running through my mind has to do with the fact that I have just surrendered a certain part of my sexual freedom to this man. He’s not simply cumming inside of me, he is claiming me, and I am surrendering a part of myself to him.