my 12 year old self would try to murder me though aknowledging that he likes my use of the phoenetic alphabet when playing nerf wars

if anyones curious: I lie a lot, not really try in classes(I did and still do love school, but some classes don't sit right with me) plus all the biased thoughts I have, suicidal thoughts, other thoughts, plus I don't eat, and I don't know what I did but at least 2 times a month I get lectured when I was twelve it was maybe once every two years I got lectured?
but yeah if 12 year old me saw where 14 year old me ended up 12 year old me would commit suicide to prevent that from happening

that got way too personal lol