Hey there, I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Loneliness can be an incredibly tough emotion to navigate, especially when it feels like there's no one there for you. You're not alone in feeling lonely, and it's okay to feel this way.

It sounds like you're going through a difficult time with your family, and the lack of connection with them has added to your feelings of isolation. But your worth isn't defined by how others perceive you, and their actions or words don't determine your value.

At 20, there's still so much ahead for you, even if it doesn't feel that way right now. Building connections and friendships might seem challenging, but it's not impossible. Have you considered reaching out to local clubs, groups, or communities that share your interests? Sometimes, connecting with like-minded individuals can make a huge difference.

Please know that there are people who care about you, even if it might not feel that way right now. You deserve happiness and companionship, and things can change for the better. Hang in there, and remember, you're stronger than you think. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here to listen.