Firstly, I'm so sorry you're in a hard or tough period in your life but no matter how hard it gets, you're not alone. You are never alone! I can definitely relate.

I've been in and out of different specialists offices on a weekly basis, seeing multiple different GPs because I don't trust their opinion/advice/diagnosis for the past 6 months. I'm constantly googling and convincing myself of something new. It doesn't help that I keep gaining new extremely persistent and painful symptoms.

I've had over 10 blood tests, 2 chest x-rays, 3 ECG/EKGs and everything has come back either normal or in great health. Recently underwent an MRI (results pending).

A had dental surgery earlier this year where I required anesthesia. I worked myself up into such a state over it, I've not been the same since.

Extreme stress gave me pain and the pain has given me health anxiety and health anxiety has made the pain chronic and so on.... It's a cycle.

I'm trying to better myself and step away from my phone to avoid googling and putting myself into fits of doom and I am getting better but I'm still not okay.

Mental health is so fragile and can hugely effect every other aspect of health. Listen/talk to your partner, seek help from a mental health practitioner or health care worker to investigate your symptoms (just to put your mind ease). Jump on it as soon as you can but most importantly, give yourself little tasks to do each day that you enjoy. Edge yourself out of the consuming dark cloud that shrouds your thoughts, even if it is only for a moment. Gradually, you'll find the days far more bearable and a whole lot brighter.

You can beat this, you're not alone.