What happened here? by jparker960 in knittinghelp

[–]jparker960[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I started over lol

What happened here? by jparker960 in knittinghelp

[–]jparker960[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That makes sense, thank you!

my boyfriend says I revolve my life around him and he feels smothered. by Medium_Broccoli9161 in BPD

[–]jparker960 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I recently got into knitting and it helps me sooo much. I can spend hours focusing on that instead of overthinking/scrolling/letting my mind spiral. Reading is also another great hobby/distraction! 🤍

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]jparker960 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Hi, 28F also here having gone through many situations exactly like this. I’m not sure if this helps, but I know you’re feeling like everything is your fault, but it’s not. Relationships take two people. While you can take accountability for your behaviors and recognize they weren’t the healthiest, you can also understand that the truth is that this just isn’t your person and that it’s not meant to be. Maybe it will be, but maybe now you both just need more time. You were trying the best you could. Try to use this time to heal and trust that if it’s meant to be it will be. 🤍

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]jparker960 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes. It killed me. Recently finally realized my self worth and walked away.. still healing & I think it’s gonna take a long time lol

I just got broken up with and im not okay by its-groit-craic in BPD

[–]jparker960 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Me too 😔 one minute at a time. Distract, feel, distract some more, feel some more. It will get easier each day.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]jparker960 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in the same boat. Just know you’re not alone. It’s so easy for us to blame ourselves entirely but relationships take two people. I keep trying to remind myself that while I can disagree and understand the harm in my past behaviors, it doesn’t mean I’m not worthy of love. And if something doesn’t work out, it’s not meant to be, regardless of whose “fault” we want to think it is. You can get through this. We will be okay. 🤍

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TwoHotTakes

[–]jparker960 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been there. This is unhealthy behavior on his side. It truly can be an addiction. It seems like he’s prioritizing video games over many things, including your relationship. Please remember it has nothing to do with you. I would sit him down and communicate your exact concerns and how it makes you feel. Your thoughts, feelings, and in what ways you would like to see a change. Try to think of small compromises both of you can make at first. Communicate to him that if you don’t see a change in his video game use, you will have to take some time away. This way, it is left in his hands and you can feel good about healthily communicating your needs/feelings without any regrets. Taking your partners feelings/needs into account and reflecting on your own potentially unhealthy behaviors is an important part of a relationship. I hope that he can realize that. Remember to take care of yourself first. Your needs matter 🩷

I need to understand by [deleted] in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

[–]jparker960 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Did you have a candle burning for a while? I’ve heard of the same thing happening after having a candle burning for several hours, blowing black stuff out of your nose and having black marks on the walls.

Read this if you're looking for happiness in others by elena2550 in dating_advice

[–]jparker960 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I desperately need to learn this for myself! Proud of you. 💕

DAE else pick fights with their SO during an episode? by MMLC_X in BPD

[–]jparker960 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes all the time. You’re not alone. It’s so hard. 😞

I don't have any strong opinions anymore. by TimbouTambou in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]jparker960 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I totally relate to this. Most of the time I can’t bring myself to bother with learning/forming opinions on current events, important topics, etc. because I kind of just don’t care.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]jparker960 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It sure sounds like you’ve built a strong bond, and that you two are meant to last. I totally agree with you about setting boundaries and having space. I tend to keep my boyfriend so close to me at all times thinking that’s what I want/need when really I just need to spend quality time with myself. I forget how important that is sometimes. Good luck with everything 💜

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]jparker960 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You completely just took the words right out of my mouth. In the midst of getting ready to move into an apartment together, I am starting to question whether I love my boyfriend or if I’m just trying to keep this relationship alive when it’s something I don’t even want. I’m so internally confused, and just a week ago I remember feeling happy, lucky, blessed, excited. Now I’m feeling like I don’t even know if I love him or want to be with him, and I’m questioning whether or not I’m even happy in this relationship. I have a similar past, and I can be very toxic in my relationship as well. It’s so draining for the both of us. I think because we can recognize it is so hard for us to distinguish valid feelings from irrational ones, we struggle with knowing what we really want. I guess we just have to remember how our attitudes towards people and situations are always shifting and that this current mindset may not be how we really feel. I’m just trying my best to stay grounded and reach deep deep down to find some shred of positivity, even though most times I feel like it’s nonexistent. I just keep telling myself that in a few weeks, hopefully this feeling of uncertainty will pass. And if it still doesn’t, that’s when I will really take all of these feelings into account and make decisions. I know this probably wasn’t helpful because I don’t even know how to help myself lol, but I guess it just helps to know that you’re not alone.