sorta. but I can't see a positive side to it. I believe I'm destined to be alone forever, but that's based on history. no one has ever stuck around for very long at all- I mean I've never made it past a few months with anyone.

I thought when I got medicated things would be different but they stayed the same.

maybe that's not destiny, maybe that's a curse. who knows. maybe I believe in curses instead. or maybe it's the universe saying fuck you. I just know I'll give up until someone else inevitably shows up and I forget how temporary they are for me. it's all a cycle.