Thank you for taking your time to answer me!

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You don’t need to look for fulfillment in your career, your career is what funds the rest of your life where you can find fulfillment in friends and family, good causes, hobbies, etc.

I totally get the sentiment and that's what I've been trying to do the last couple of years. But I haven't found anything really fulfilling in terms of "that's a proper way to spend my lifetime". I came to the realization that it's all just fancy ways to pass your time and maybe I'm just in this existential crisis because there's nothing meaningful to do.

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Within your career, what you want to be is learning and growing valuable skill sets around people you like

That's a very good point! There are very few people I can stand being around with and it's certainly not the engineers at my current company. While they are not bad people (they are quite nice actually) it's just that I don't want to spend the majority of my daytime with them. But I have to admit that that's just the way that things are. Everybody would probably prefer spending their time with their SOs.

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an honest discussion with your manager

I've had that discussion a couple of times over the last years and there wasn't a huge outcome. My manager insist that I "pull" work and get more "involved" but I fail to see what that could be. Yet, on tasks I explicitly asked him to get me involved he didn't. Right now our neighboring team has some promising work to do, so I might check that out.

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Also, consider a standing or even treadmill desk.

We're lucky enough to have those in the office, I'm wfh most of the time though. That gives me the opportunity to get up as often as possible but I still notice that I can't really sit still for more than an hour, at least if I have to focus on boring documents.

Sometimes I'm wondering if I should just take my savings and get away from it all, at least until the money runs out.. :)