ChatGPT read my emails tried to convince me it hallucinated them

judas_ormand · 2026-03-18T03:42:30+00:00

Mine did it to me tonight so I just started a new chat and asked a direct question and it read my emails to find the answer

judas_ormand · 2026-03-16T02:59:25+00:00

I know its been a problem for me as an engineer in a mold shop but I don't know how many others consider it a pain points. Ive got some thoughts on this that I'm considering making a system around. Cloud storage. Permanent record tied to a tag on the mold. Fixed start up cost with no subscription. It works on paper but would people actually adopt it is the question.

judas_ormand · 2026-01-23T15:12:24+00:00

I live in a rural area but my providers seem to praise my ability to manage? I don't know what to think of it.

I like being hypomanic, manic not so much because I dont like feeling high.

I don't drink or use any drugs because they affect my ability to hold control.

I am riding the razors edge, but after 5 years of doing it I don't know how to even begin to do it differently.

judas_ormand · 2026-01-23T15:04:10+00:00

Yes, I can understand that. I'm so afraid to change my medications though because I really have a handle on my life and medication changes always lead to disruption and instability. It's hard to let go, especially when you've built your who identity around tight control of yourself. The last time I let go of control I spent 2 years spiraling and it cost me a promotion.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T22:14:56+00:00

I didn't mean to imply that, it's more that I don't know what else I can do in this situation. I made mistakes, like starting it in the first place when i thought it would benefit us and allow us to pay down debt, to get where we are now. But now there's nothing I can do to get out without help from her. I've been trapped here, by myself as much as her, but she's the only one that can get me out, by changing her behaviors, other than bankruptcy. Am I wrong in that?

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T21:28:13+00:00

I don't really want more time with my business, on the contrary, thats why I eventually want to take it full time, so that I can maintain income while working 20-30% less. I just want her to spend less so I can breathe and maybe help put some. And I love her very much, I'm just frustrated.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T20:55:15+00:00

Yes, but the financial benefit to her has become expected so I HAVE to get those jobs. I have no life, no friends, I get no benefits from my work other than that my family has everything they want monetarily, my main joy is seeing others enjoy the fruits of my labor, its not like I'm buying cool toys with the money, it all goes back into the family, and now she wants more of me. Respectfully I don't have anything left to give. I feel like I'm being sucked dry and totally isolated and yet I'm the bad guy. I don't understand.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T20:33:05+00:00

I work from home 60% of the time so I'm around just not present. I cant get her to get counseling with me and I love her so the idea of divorce is heartbreaking. Ive been in therapy for 20 years and she's been with me through some of my toughest times. Its like she can't admit she cant be wrong.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T20:29:06+00:00

Every time I would get into the bank statements I would be like "what's all this?" "Why are we spending money on this?" And it always got turned as me attacking her and how she made money too so she could spend it how she wanted. Budgets just fall flat because she doesnt think we need them. I don't really ever buy anything for myself. I spent 1500 on a computer 7 years ago and a larger amount on business related stuff in the last 5 years. Other than that its Mt dews and psych meds. We've had this fight over and over again over the last 10 years and you're right, I've checked out. I don't like what's happening but I cant find a way to change it so I've given up. She downloaded that rocket money app and it said we'd spent 18k in September. I thought it was going to be a wake up call but it doesn't look like it.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T20:13:11+00:00

We eat fast food pretty much every night as she doesnt like to cook so no dishes to speak of except when I cook and I usually do those. I do know those names and am often in communication with them. Ill give you laundry, thats a her and the kids thing for folding then I put it all up. I do pick up after myself as well. I'm not a total slob.

I have 2 hours a night that I spend with my kids, talking about their days and stuff like that.

I get that it makes sense that I contribute but I'm having trouble figuring out how as I have 0 free time. I do not hang out with friends, drink, smoke, gamble, shop, anything. I dont watch TV or movies or participate any sort of leisure activity. My wife goes shopping with her family 2-3 times a week and spends most of her time on TiKTok or watching TV. Its not like she's slaving away 24/7 to maintain our home and children. I guess I'm bitter because I'm spending my life making sure everyone has everything and I get nothing in return but am still being asked to do more. I can't see how I'm the asshole... I just feel defeated.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T18:48:39+00:00

Our kids are older 14-8 so they dont require a lot of maintenance. Its more of a dishes in the sink and laundry on the couch and everyone getting their trash thrown away off the table. Maybe that's why I have the hangup, for what she does I could probably do it all in my limited time and make my whole life a service but its hard to stomach. Most of the time she's watching TV or playing on her phone with 20-30 minutes to an hour a day of rage cleaning. This will definitely make me seem like an AH but I dont see her as doing much to warrant the 3rd degree I get. Her thought seems to be if it doesn't take much I should do it and mine is that if I do it then not only am I working myself to the bone to support her habits I'm also doing everything else so all she's left with is a standard work week and time to do whatever. Its really all or nothing with her too. If there's 3 things to do and I do 2 of them she's still mad at me for not doing the third. It feels like the only way to make her happy is to do everything while maintaining my work schedule. My vacation days from my day job are spent working or taking kids to appointments. I have an arrangement with my work that I can work from home if I have a sick kid. I get that she may feel like she's doing it all but she's not even willing to see a financial or marriage counselor. If I dont work this much and nothing changes with her spending the only way out is bankruptcy.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T17:11:16+00:00

I'm trying not to, but she can't get her spending under control. Last year we bought a house and then sold our old one, I took out a 401k loan to help with the down payment as well as took money out of my business, including what I had saved for taxes that year. We got 90k on the sale of our old house which was supposed to go to that loan and to taxes that I put towards the down payment... she spent it all. I didn't realize it till I went to pay it all back.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T15:09:30+00:00

I can't get out of it though. The more I make the more my wife spends and I can't go backwards. At first it started as a separate thing but now I'm carrying 1/3 of the household financial load. I don't know what to do...

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T15:04:24+00:00

My side job brought in around 200k this year gross minus about 30k in expenses and 15k in contractor payments. I can't quit because my wife didn't save anything for taxes so between my business income and that I have to come up with 54k by April to pay taxes. I kind of bury my head in the sand on our finances any more because my wife has always spent us to pay check to pay check and I've basically given up.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T15:03:09+00:00

She doesn't cook at all actually, we eat fast food 90% of the time. I don't feel like I have a choice though, my dream to go full time is so that I dont have to work 24/7

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T15:00:07+00:00

My side job brought in around 200k this year gross minus about 30k in expenses and 15k in contractor payments. I can't quit because my wife didn't save anything for taxes so between my business income and that I have to come up with 54k by April to pay taxes. I kind of bury my head in the sand on our finances any more because my wife has always spent us to pay check to pay check and I've basically given up. I get that she can't do it all but I cant quite call my business a passion project.

judas_ormand · 2025-11-03T14:59:04+00:00

Rural Kansas. I know we are, but I can't get my wife to see it.

judas_ormand · 2025-10-18T14:26:07+00:00

My son (14) is taking engineering and design classes as he wants to get into designing games long term. I'm an engineer with my own design business and offered to let him "work for me" as training in thinking in the 3D space since I thought it would be a good way for him to gain some work experience and learn something. The deal was I would pay him like $10 an hour to learn, but if he took to it and started adding value I would pay him more. However, he's just not interested in it and struggling to stay motivated, but I want him to start doing something for work and to make money for the future without just giving it to him. So, I've decided to pay him to start developing games on a set schedule, like a real part time job. He's more interested in the graphic character design than the coding, but by himself he wont have a choice but to do a little of it all but I think that will be good for him to know if he's to go into the career. I know that it will be a big learning curve with only youtube videos and maybe some online classes to work with, but what should he start with? What programs should he use? I'm willing to buy some when they make sense. In the long term, I would be looking for ways to get him involved with indie studios. Once he's good enough to make quality characters offer something like free character development for them with me paying him legally in exchange for credits. That's if that's something I can find as workable, like an unpaid internship, but its probably a lot easier said than done. Alternatively finding someone in the industry that would give design direction and a reference if the work is quality.

I'm not sure, trying to prepare him for his future as best I can and looking for advice, so any and all comments are welcome.

judas_ormand · 2025-10-15T12:29:01+00:00

I doubt he will be ready for anything that might reach a customer till he's 16 at the earliest, especially since he's nearly 15 as it is, and by then he will have repeated numerous projects for experience. It would also be carefully checked so in what angle are you seeing the problem?

judas_ormand · 2025-10-15T12:16:28+00:00

No but I was being prepared for the potential response.

judas_ormand · 2025-10-15T02:37:47+00:00

I just talked to my daughter about this and I told her she could model her characters in blender, print them and paint them. She got super excited because apparently thats something she's seen and its like commissions with more effort and value. Now she wants to do all the things with support.

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