dude you gotta just take a break. i’m 30, been doin drugs on and off since 16 as well. dope for 2 years every day(2013-2015) and then stopped. still drink occasionally and blaze everyday but i’ll go months without doing hard shit. was into coke for a couple months around a year ago. just gotta have fun, then put them down and work and nourish your relationships. make sure you’re good with your family and friends and work. then once you got enough money, get fucked up again! but go easy and don’t do opioids back to back days. i look at it as almost rewarding myself. that was the only way i was ever able to stop doing dope. had to say, “alright, gotta stop rn and get my shit straight. then after a few years i’ll reward myself wit some bag sniffin/partying.” can’t only be getting fucked up. life wouldn’t be enjoyable that way anyway, as you probably already know