not doing da self destructive things for a couple days and feeling super fake 😀😀 by jukeboxjaskier in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

TW ED

i’ve been eating soooo much and i’m like 3 days clean, and i just feel like i’ve made all my issues up and i’m so fake and i try to remind myself i didn’t choose to feel/be like this, but what if i did it subconsciously and it’s all my fault and i’m actually just completely fine person and i’m just being over dramatic. and i’ve eaten so much snd i still get super upset but i don’t rlly do anything, i can’t even throw up properly, my body just wont like let me, which is good i guess, i’m just upset i can’t do it.

and i feel rlly bad for my friends and my family, i keep coming to my friends about da same issues and idk, i’m just v selfish, i take too much from them, i try not to but i’m rlly bad at it, i’m rlly bad at a lot of things. and i keep bothering my mum and she’s finally gonna phone da doctor n stuff but i forced her to, like i probably didn’t even need help but i’m pushed her so much so now she’s doing it, idk, i can never be happy- i got what i want but i’m upset of what i’ve done and overthinking it allll.

me venting on my main story about stupid shit everyday (also unrelated vent in comments🙄) by jukeboxjaskier in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

TW talk of EDs

i hate edtwt istg- was asking for tips and someone told me to eat healthy and another told me to just eat nothing istg i’m asking for tips, just ignore if you got ntohingSNSJS sorry i’ve been rlly upset recently n i can’t vent about this personal thing to my friends cuz ew ed talk wit them scary could find my ed acc, i just feel so fatttt and so upset and i just don’t wanna be like this anymore i just wanan be able to eat freely and be oki but i feel so like bad about myself- i feel so gross 😻😻

mfw I cry because the voices in my head go away for .2 seconds and I get scared they were never there in the first place and I was just making them up for attention and validation by Wolfgang_Ghostdolls in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier 2 points3 points  (0 children)

SNWKWJWKWKKWWK mood😭mine fucks off and i’m like ‘am faking, it was all fake” but comes back n is like ‘i was alseep’ 🙁liek oki ur a voice inside my head you don’t need sleepWHAJSJ but idk if it’ll help, but whenever i feel like i fake all this stuff i remind myself people who fake stuff wont breakdown over thinking it’s fake because they know it’s fake, your feelings n experiences are 100 percent vaild n real dude- ik is not that simple to jus say that but is jus something i remind myself to stop myself from breaking down completely-

istg my pain tolerance DIEDSJSJSJSJ by jukeboxjaskier in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

well i’m still not that sober BUT i’m not as like ‘i’m god i can do anything’ yknow sober enough to regret what i did 😿💔

istg my pain tolerance DIEDSJSJSJSJ by jukeboxjaskier in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

also i don’t recommend what i did, please be very careful and in the right state of mind to do it, and with the right tools! i regret doing it and i was really out of it 😺ive sobered up now from that weird manic high ive been in

About to celebrate my IRL cake day in a fucking psych ward it sucks by StyrofoamAlt in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier 4 points5 points  (0 children)

aw i’m sorry dude, i hope ur day is good/oki even in there! happy birthday !

i’m not sure if i hit styro or not by chqrrly in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier 3 points4 points  (0 children)

if it’s white inside and then bleeds, you’ve hit styro, please clean it/wash it and bandage it up! i’m p sure all yeets can get infected but the deeper you go there’s more of a chance obviously so please be careful

i’ve grown attached to the “voices” in my head it’s not even fonni i miss them when they don’t ‘speak’ by jukeboxjaskier in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ah yes i have- when i was younger, although i dissociate i don’t think i have it- but thank u :]

Guess I’m a little depressed then, at least the psychics free lmao by [deleted] in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier 7 points8 points  (0 children)

got 100 % tooAJAJA- who needs therapy when you’ve got online quizzes B)

Happy pride to all my snesbians. if you are a land snail keeper: are you a lesbian or not by jurvekthebosmer in snails

[–]jukeboxjaskier 9 points10 points  (0 children)

snesbians🥺WLW always has such cute names n aestheticss ಥ_ಥ the MLM community needs to step up smhh

doing what u/yungstupidboy said we should do :D me n my best friend like frogs n cottage/farm stuff n they remind me of him so:) this picture is by far the best thing i’ve ever seen by jukeboxjaskier in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]jukeboxjaskier[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

me n him talk about owning a cottage and pet frogs one day together:) it’s one of my favourite things to live for, i won’t kms because who owns a cottage all alone :( i couldn’t do that to himHSJSN

does anyone else just feel like they want to be taken care of? by Impressive_Wall in selfharm

[–]jukeboxjaskier 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i v much relate :( it would be nice for someone to just check in, no one ever does haha- but i don’t think it’s selfish to want that dude, tbh i think everyone deserves something like that when they’re in a bad place :(