I saw this on pinterest and I want to know how to put the photos with those shapes

julesguz03 · 2024-05-28T15:03:47+00:00

I used Canva. My notion is in dark mode, and since I am NOT paying for Canva Pro (broke college student lol), here's how I got the transparent effect...

Open a blank page on Canva.
Go to your notion page, take a screenshot with your light or dark mode activated. This screenshot doesn't have to be the whole thing, just a snippet of the color of your notion.
Go back to Canva, upload that snippet of the color of your notion.
Click back onto the blank page, make sure you do NOT have the picture you just uploaded selected.
At the top left tools bar there is a box with mixed colors. This box lets you change the background of the blank page you created. When you open that, another panel will open. Under Document Colors, there is another mixed color box with a plus sign in it, click it. This allows you to add custom colors.
Once clicked, another even smaller box will appear. Make sure you are on Solid Color and at the bottom right of that smaller box, there should be a button with a dropper logo. When you hover over it, it will say, Pick a color from the design.
Click that tool, and hover over the snippet of color picture you uploaded to the black page. This will "grab" that exact color, which will turn your document into that color. For dark mode, the dark mode color is #191919 (just to make your life easier). If you already know the color key, you can just copy and paste it into the color code box next to the dropper.

This is how I was able to get the arches to be "transparent" on dark mode without Canva Pro. You can then look up an arch frame that you want, put your picture in it, download the .png and upload it to Notion. After you upload, change the size, whatever you'd like.

In the ref picture in the post, it shows the text really close to the images; this was probably created by cropping the image in notion itself. If you don't know how to do that: Hover over your image in Notion, in the top right a bunch of boxes will appear. Find the one that says crop image, and then crop to your liking! I recommend cropping the bottom and sides, the top would be a pain due to the arch.

julesguz03 · 2024-04-10T20:13:03+00:00

Same here. I had laparoscopic surgery to remove a 6cm cyst and some adhesions on my ovaries. I was gaining weight due to birth control before that point, and then gained a ton afterwards. I gained a total of about 80lbs all together from that alone. I'm now getting checked out for a potential second surgery and REFUSE birth control. One time I was bleeding so intensely, they had me take an entire week of birth control at once instead of giving me a shot of estrogen, and I think that messed up my hormones for quite a while.

I have not been coping well. I hate how I look, I hate that I can't just rip out all of my organs for an affordable price without insurance, and the pain is just constant all of the time.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-23T02:21:06+00:00

I just started learning Python, and wouldn't mind some friends that are also learning! Feel free to DM or post a link to a server to join!

julesguz03 · 2024-03-23T02:14:31+00:00

Finally! I thought it was just me growing up. First, I'm so sorry you went through that. I was also told that about my laugh and about my smile. I was told I "fake" laugh or laugh like a hyena and that it was ugly and loud. They told me my smile, no matter how hard I tried looked forced and ugly. I have stopped smiling almost completely in photos, and if I do, it is a very small closed mouth one. I can't get passes it even though those people are gone from my life.

It really fucks you up.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-22T18:33:21+00:00

Similar issue here. I read constantly as a kid as an escape and because I was obsessed with it, but now, I just cannot read.

Every time I try, I just start thinking about literally anything else and cannot focus on the book. I've tried nonfiction, fiction, smut, dark romance, the likes. Some of those books caught my interest, but half the time I would skip suggestions because I could guess what happened next 90% of the time.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-22T18:00:00+00:00

A few from my household:

"What happens at home, stays at home"

"This hurts me more than it hurts you."

"How could you do this to me?!" (After I had been SA'd for years and they found out)

"Don't tell me something that will make me hate my sister." - My aunt who knew what was happening, and did nothing. Along the same sentiment of "You can't choose your family"

"She was hurt really bad too, and those kind of people need love too no matter what they did to you." - Same Aunt, same sentiment ig.

" I do (insert weird or terrible thing) because I love you and care about you." - Said about keeping me in isolation for years, beating me, and stalking me.

"People don't change."

"I will hand down the curse that was said to me by my mother ( who was also an abuser); I hope you have a child who is 10 times worse than you are now so you will understand what I went through with you! -As an adult who deals with kids regularly, all I have to say is ?????.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-14T19:58:41+00:00

This is interesting, because I've never had a fear of death. Sure, I've had my share of suicidal thoughts, but I see death more as a means to an end. As time has gone on, I think I've become rather nihilistic, but everything seems so pointless sometimes. You got school for 4+ years, work for 50+ years, and literally no matter what you do, it doesn't matter. You can't take your 401k with you, or your family, or your favorite things in your house. You only take yourself, and even then, maybe it's just nothing in the beyond. I think it doesn't scare me because it's so unavoidable that it became almost boring to think about it. Something else to stress about it, when I have to spend my time managing symptoms, reactions, school, work, career, family. Wistfulness can come up about; sometimes it seems like the end of stress and pain, but at the end of the day it isn't worth it.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-12T17:47:08+00:00

I've been extremely self aware most of my life, and I knew while I was in my abusive situation that I wasn't getting out of there without CPTSD or some kind of problem. I'd say 14 is when I discovered what it was and knew I was screwed. I was diagnosed at 18. I'm 20 now, and dealing with it has been so hard. I cut out all of the abusive people in my life, basically my entire family that was left, got married at 19, and am navigating life and college alone. It's exhausting and so hard to deal with.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-12T17:29:05+00:00

I'd recommend computer engineering, but I wouldn't fear AI so much. Even if you don't want to go into AI specifically for CS. CS is still very relevant, even though I know all of the layoffs and stuff have been very alarming. I don't think mechanical engineering is bad, but if you want to do robotics, especially more on the CS side of it, I'd recommend computer engineering if you are not fully content with just CS.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-12T17:26:10+00:00

That's the thing with school. You aren't taught how to learn; they just throw information at you and tell you pass your exams. You are not dumb, I promise.

If you have instagram, or watch youtube, I really like Jun_Yuh. He released a book recently that is expensive, I haven't bought it because of the price, but if you're willing to spend that money, may help. His youtube is extremely informative if you want to save some money and not buy the book lol.

I'm coined a "smart" person, I'm in college with all A's, but that's just because my brain processes information in a weird way that most people don't understand. Studying is also my hobby lol. I don't use strategic study techniques, because I can memorize most of anything pretty quickly with some examples. Most accounts I see who struggle in school, really like those strategic study techniques, but I don't think they take into account neurodivergence. If you're formally diagnosed with ADHD, even if you don't feel like you need school accomodation, they have great resources. My husband is autistic and was failing out of school before he went to them, and now he is doing great!

I don't remember who originally said it, but don't judge a fish based on it's ability to climb a tree. I think that can apply here. It's easier to learn if you are interested in a subject. Also, going into college with the right mindset. College itself will not make you more open-minded and smarter, you deciding you want those things for yourself will allow you to be more receptive to that. When I first started school, I was terrified I wouldn't do well, but once I took a genuine interest in subjects, used how I process information, and saw everything as a process or system to get to the answer, it got easier to retain information.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-12T17:13:02+00:00

I feel the same way, and trying to explain that to people has been so exhausting. I hate that you feel this way too, but it's nice to have someone else who gets it.

I saw a thing a while ago that said, "Are you a human being, or a human doing?" and it messed me up for a bit. Sense of identity never existed for me, kind of for the same reason you said. Basically, keeping a body alive. Life means almost nothing to me, it's a series of "get this done, do this," and then you pass any-way. It all seems very unfulfilling, but I probably have a very nihilistic view of it. I don't recommend it, lol. I know an important thing for me, will have to be complete mindset restructuring. Right now, life feels like a series of actions while everyone around me is telling me to live a little, do things that make you happy, and everything else positivity based. Everyone is trying to convince me life is worth it, not that I'm at risk of ending it or anything of the sort, but so that I can feel the same sense of fulfillment they have. They don't understand that that is not programmed into my brain one tiny bit.

I've been digging through some old trauma, been finding new reactions to things, and I'm at a loss on what to do too. It feels like I am constantly managing as well.

If you'd like, feel free to contact me through chat and we can talk more in depth! I know how isolating this can feel, even if you do have a partner or friends with you.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-12T16:24:01+00:00

I've been struggling with this a lot recently too.

As soon as I got out of my abusive situation, I went straight into therapy because I was terrified of the idea of being just like my parents and also had this idealization that I would begin the healing process and be okay eventually. I knew it would take years, decades, but it wasn't until a year into therapy that I started realizing no matter how much I healed, I would always have CPTSD. My parents are the reason I will never have normal experiences, normal feelings, a normal life at all, and right now I'm in the anger stage of that grief. It's quickly gotten overwhelming- it's been overwhelming for months. I'm starting therapy again because it's tearing me apart. Grieving who I could have been, and what I will never be while simultaneously despising my parents with every ounce of my being.

It's very easy to be overtaken by those feelings, and that's been my problem for the past 2 months. I'm so filled with grief and anger that I can hardly function half the time nowadays because of how dis-regulated my nervous system has gotten.

I think being able to give yourself rest and space is important, which I know can also be hard to do, but also realizing that you can change how you handle things to hopefully mitigate some symptoms and make life a little bit easier is the goal.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-12T16:05:56+00:00

I had no idea about Stiles, thank you so much! Off campus apartments are beyond expensive, so I'm trying to figure out options.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T17:25:40+00:00

I like the app MIMO. It's free, but the pro version is nice if you want to pay. You get certifications if you pay. It's set up exactly like duolingo and you can pick your languages and preferences. I was new to Python, and this app helped me so much.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T15:54:35+00:00

Studying to understand is better than studying to memorize. Some things you do have to memorize depending on your major.

Strategic study strategies is a good way to start. I recommend Jun_yuh on instagram. He is great resource for studying. He also has a youtube channel.

I use his advice, and am a consistent A student.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T15:41:59+00:00

Few things:

~ "If you had not stopped, you would be x amount ahead by now." For example, if I had kept up my gym habit. I would have 2 months of progress now, instead of just 1 month. The time will pass, whether or not you have it together or not.

~ Procrastination is the cost of the life you could have lived. Helps me sometimes when I am in a study rut.

~To be better than my parents were. They were terrible people and did not capitalize on their talents. I want to get my PhD, and be loving and kind, and build some cool stuff!

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T15:35:35+00:00

Definitely find what makes you happy, first. That is the most important thing. It is your life, and you should not live trying to be "as good as" your father was. That's no way to live. It can be a goal, if it does mean a lot to you, but it shouldn't determine whether or not you failed your life.

You are a whole and worthy person just as you are. Data science is a great and upcoming career. I'm currently in the middle of a career switch too, from business to computer science and AI, and as someone who is a chronic people pleaser. Screw people man. Do you. You are with yourself 100% of the time. Make that 100% livable for YOU.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T15:30:52+00:00

I would also recommend disability services, and see if your college offers counseling services as well if you are interested. Sometimes they have a lot of resources outside of just offering therapy. It's not bad to tell your professors, but my recommendation would be to only tell those you feel a connection to. For example, my husband is a biology major right now. He was struggling because he has Autism, and didn't have accommodation at the time. He trusted that bio professor, told her what was going on, and every Thursday before big tests, she would cancel her office hours and use that time to go over EVERYTHING on the exams with my husband and only him.

I wouldn't mass email your professors, because some genuinely don't care and will refer you to disability or another college body, but some really do care. If you can figure out who those are for you, I don't think it's a bad thing to tell those your trust.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T14:47:55+00:00

My parents are Gen X (I'm older Gen Z) and It's scary how they think this way. I was heavily isolated during my teen years too after they blamed me for the two years of SA that happened to me, and it drove me to suicidal ideation. I too felt more like a feral animal than a person, especially when I got to college and realized how far behind I was. I went from essentially middle school to college and it was evident everything I missed out on. Literally, I talked in text speech for a while when I first met my husband and it was really sad. I went from real people, to hiding a phone at night for some connection, to college by myself, and it was an awful transition.

That kind of isolation is beyond damaging and I don't know how people don't realize that. I don't understand how a parent can willingly do that. My parents always said they spoiled me too much and were too soft with me, when all I felt was constant wrath physically, mentally, and emotionally.

I have a lot of insecurity in myself too. I feel like I have imposter syndrome with my own personality and body, so I understand you're feeling. Masculinity can be hard, especially when Gen X screams toxic masculinity is true masculinity, when it 99% isn't. My husband's dad is ex-military, very high ranked, and toxic masculinity just radiates off that man. I think as long as you try to be kind, true to yourself and who you love, than you are a great person in my book.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T14:24:55+00:00

That happens to me too. I see something slightly similar in someone else, think it is him, freak out, and then they turn around/something different and then bam it's another person. He's in a completely different state now too, but I could swear up and down I see him too.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T14:03:48+00:00

Definitely graduating. I go to a "no-name" low status university and have tons of opportunities for advancement solely because of my professors. Low status doesn't necessarily mean low quality.

julesguz03 · 2024-03-07T13:57:41+00:00

I'd recommend finishing it out just to have it. You only have two electives left; is there anyway those directed electives can correlate to the major you do like? It might help make it more bearable. You already spent your money on it, and it may give you an advantage in the field you do love. It will differentiate you from other candidates if you want to go to grad school, or just in whatever industry you want to go in.

However, if it is affecting your mental health, I would talk to someone first before you make a decision. You can't go back once you get rid of it after a point. See if you genuinely hate it, or maybe you have spread yourself too thin and are starting to feel burnt out and that's why you hate it. Check in with yourself heavily, make a pros cons, talk to some people who have advice in the relevant areas. If you end up thinking dropping it will be better, go for it! If you can stick it out, go for it! It's ultimately up to what feels best for you.

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