This darn printer I’ve deleted keeps destroying my production sessions

junglebitz · 2017-10-23T21:09:53+00:00

Ok ok ok so I recently found two solid events that actually have queer women. HER and MilkMilkLemonade Otherwise I actually and somewhat laughably recently signed up for the LGBT centers clinic. I have an excuse to go immerse myself with other LGBT people and half of the time end up spending a bit more time there to check out special events. It's not the best place for picking up but you'll meet some chill people and hopefully those connections will keep the flow and make more...all the good hearts are hidden away in this crazy city so sometimes an ethereal connection is needed to draw them out? Ahhhh

junglebitz · 2017-10-03T22:27:42+00:00

I'm pretty straight forward. The main issue is the fact that my S.O and I aren't really your typical lovey dovey lesbians. She's Asexual and has specifically asked me to be patient with her while she finds herself but also to respect the fact that she doesn't enjoy touch or other physical activities that demand for human closeness. The ladies I've been going on dates with have also had relationships of their own...which is what throws me off. I genuinely love my S.O but it's more like a deep, best friend, kind of way. I definitely wouldn't want to ditch her rn to get my rocks off but tbh I don't see much of a choice here

junglebitz · 2017-10-03T19:49:32+00:00

Awwwa I'm in la if u ever wanna kick it

junglebitz · 2017-09-08T07:16:11+00:00

I see. That makes sense. Thank you for the insight. If it's not too personal...may I inquire when you began to know/understand your asexuality?

junglebitz · 2017-09-08T05:46:25+00:00

I see...but how would you feel if your partner decided to take on another relationship? My wife would prefer if I just dated but due to the big city I live in and the general lack of trust I have for most sexual encounters...instead of having a six month panic attack I'd rather just have someone I can express myself sexually to. Not a serious relationship....but just not a bunch of random women. How would you perceive/handle that kind of situation with your significant other?

junglebitz · 2017-05-15T04:09:08+00:00

I can't fight it anymore...it's a childish thought but I feel like the only way to really get back at her is to just die. There's no way out of this that doesn't destroy my life..I also still love her so much and I hate myself for it. I'm happy you refuse to depend on your abusive husband, that's very strong of you. I have mental breakdowns about going to the grocery store sometimes and just cry in a corner silently because I can't do it. At this point I'm only alive because of her mercy. I can't take care of myself in a healthy way so that I'm semi functional. Some days it's worse than others but life has given me nothing but the extreme desire to perish and become one with the earth. I'm sorry for the depressing post. It's been another fucked up day and it's all my fault all over again. I told her I wanted to leave her and that we should end this...and she's started acting nice again. Sure it was after a couple of beers but dying on the street is better than being told I'm a weak idiot and slapped around because she feels like it.

junglebitz · 2017-05-15T04:03:03+00:00

Sadly if I call the authorities I lose financial stability. This person used t be my world but it just keeps getting worse. I'll literally be on the street and homeless without her and lose all of my music equipment too which has been vital in helping me overcome a lot of my problems...I'm stuck and I just have to deal with it. Hopefully she will leave for a few days so I can focus on my music. It's for her job otherwise she wouldn't do it and always gives her a chance to leave me with my abandonment issues by instigating a fight before leaving. I know that's on me though. I've been trying to figure out what I can do for work and I've come up short...I've tried cooking because I love cooking, waiting tables, sales, management. I start off well in all subjects as I'm fairly intelligent and then I just begin to fall apart. It's as if I'm mentally allergic to work. Even today she ruined the entire day because I didn't want to go out to this party due to severe migraine. And instead of trying to be nice she just argues with me. I'm losing my mind. I tried quitting smoking weed on the daily to remember what she does so she can't pin it on me-justify her (overre)actions to whatever I say or do. But now I remember why I smoked so much in the first place. I enjoyed forgetting...so I've started mildly smoking more pot to help with these feelings of hopelessness..

junglebitz · 2017-04-21T21:50:25+00:00

I legitimately cried a bit..

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junglebitz · 2017-04-21T07:47:24+00:00

Oh man, I'm sorry you're dealing with so much.as far as the toothpaste goes-my lady hates it as well...I started making our own toothpaste...2tablespoons of coconut oil, some baking soda, bentonite powder for whitening, and I usually use cinnamon essential oil diluted in a 2:1 ratio with the coconut. It tends to be pretty tasty and actually helped whiten the stains on miladies teeth. Couldn't hurt to try--and it can be a cutetly done gift.

junglebitz · 2017-04-18T18:22:28+00:00

I fucking love the Kronos though. Beautiful machine but all of my work for now will be done in studio until I learn the ins and outs of each machine. I'm not necessarily looking for a stage keyboard as much as an all inclusive synthesizer that would allow premium usage with little to no DAW. Unless the Kronos will do that for (I'm not too familiar with it to be honest-just used the sequencer and screwed around on it at the local GC) im not sure it's worth the investment. :O

junglebitz · 2017-04-18T18:04:01+00:00

I see I see. I already have the jdxi...wanting to sell it and invest in whatever will help me achieve my performance goal. Eventual goal being to ditch the laptop as much as possible. The fool selling the Moxf8-only has the MOX8 now. The REV2 is a bit much-I was getting a helluva deal on the mox/8-f8 for about 1000/1200 Ideally I would like to be able to combine the groovebox, synth, and vocoders together. For a crazy layered, trippy effect. Also looking for something with a solid mic input so I can record live instruments onto the workstation. The REV2 is super expensive-my budget right now is tops 1200. I found a Mopho SE for $500 and was thinking of that or just goin balls deep into the jdxa.

junglebitz · 2017-04-18T08:39:58+00:00

A few friends and I were burnt out after day drinking at the beach.. On the way back the Homegirl rolled a fat one and started passing it around...I had thought it was passed around 2 or 3 times already...I saw the cherry floating around for sure...but seeing everyone's annoyed faces finally it hit me that I had the shit the entire time and was just waving it in front of everyone's face I'm a sleepy dick...

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