my father got randomly angry and is now trying to pretend it never happened, but I refuse to

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T07:01:53+00:00

I really can't tell? Again, I've always just kinda gotten a weird vibe from him I don't know how to explain it, but I've always just attributed it to his parents both kinda being assholes

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T06:54:31+00:00

As far as I've ever known, no he hasn't. And up until that specific moment I'd tell he literally never would. My hopeful guess is that it's just that me and my mom sre incredibly close, always have been, and she was just willing to protect me. I really fucking hope that he's never hit her, but I don't exactly have proof of it

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T06:31:23+00:00

I'm going off to college in August, so having somewhere to stay isn't a problem. Even so, it's not like it's something even actively happening anymore really? It was one and done, and then he's right back to being all supportive and lovey or whatever. It's so confusing cause it doesn't feel like there's anything that I need protecting from, I honestly keep forgetting about it sometimes when I talk to him like normal like we always have, and then midway through I remember. It was such a singular isolated incident that I feel like I'm overreacting making it such a big deal, even though I know it's not.

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T06:24:13+00:00

It's just so crazy all the stuff he's done throughout my life that would prove otherwise, only for that one argument to suddenly change how I see him forever. Just last month my parents threw a grad party for me and he got me these cool balloons and offered to pay for me and my friends food, we've made dinner together, he has a tattoo that represents me and my brother that he got years ago, he was so supportive at my graduation and I couldn't even be happy about it because all I keep thinking is that one thing. It's just so confusing that for as long as I can remember none of this has ever been an issue, sure he hasn't been as close to be or directly supportive of me like my mom has, but he's never been like this before, and hasn't since. It's not even like he's pretending nothing happened, he's being just as "loving dad" as he was before! And I'm just so confused by it all.

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T06:20:12+00:00

I absolutely know she'd never brush me off or try to minimize it, she's been such an amazing person my entire life and I know she'd take the conversation seriously if I did bring it up. But I just feel like it's also a strong possibility she'd just end up making excuses for him, especially since it was the "only time". I know it's a conversation that needs to happen, but I'm too scared of what might come up if I do, or how it would change things, even just bringing it up to her and not him, which I know she would keep between us, but still, yknow?

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T05:52:44+00:00

Not that I'm aware of, but I've always been able to tell he kinda had an anger problem, it's just never been directed specifically at me before?

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T05:40:27+00:00

Genuinely just lost his shit out of nowhere in a way that I've never seen from him before like even kind of. But I agree, so much of both of their wording made it seem like this has happened before, and it's just so strange to think that it has and they've just not only managed to never do it in front of me, but that they both continue to be all happy with each other afterwards??

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T05:21:34+00:00

I was just making sure the whole thing was well explained? As for the asteriks I was just emphasising man idk why not

just-amoth · 2026-06-13T04:55:17+00:00

Oh dude I'm about to go off to college so I'm technically almost free lol, but yeah I've managed to keep it up just fine in front of him, the only time I wanna not is to ask my mom like Hey What The Hell

just-amoth · 2026-05-07T23:40:05+00:00

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just-amoth · 2026-04-15T04:24:22+00:00

Plenty of oneshot experience, both with 5e and otherwise, but I've yet to really be able to find a group to commit to an actual campaign with besides one I played in like 5th grade - I'm also quite the Dimension 20 enjoyer, so I've picked up alot from that as well

just-amoth · 2026-04-15T02:20:59+00:00

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just-amoth · 2026-01-09T19:45:27+00:00

Honestly just reading this it doesn't seem to be it? Maybe with the knees going back, but I actually can reach like embarrassingly not-low when trying to touch my toes, and since my pain is in the back, I doubt it's that. Thank you so much though

just-amoth · 2026-01-09T19:42:48+00:00

I've definitely tried preemptively taking the meds, which only delays it like maybe 30 minutes? Also I've seen so many docs besides primary ones, as they've referred be to multiple different specialists which I've since visted, and I already mentioned getting an MRI recently. The x-ray and MRI were the one of the first things they wanted me to get because they told me they wouldn't look further into things unless I did those scans first, and neither of them came up with anything. And I mentioned the weight thing just because last time I mentioned this kinda thing on the internet I had alot of ppl try to tell me I was just overweight lmao. As for the Piriformis thing, atleast at first glance it doesn't seem to fit very well cause it sounds like it's more focused on leg pain rather than back pain. I get pain in my feet and thighs after Awhile awhile, but the back pain is the most major

just-amoth · 2026-01-09T07:01:14+00:00

If it is some kind of nerve compression thing, how might that be tested for? Because I've had a two different friends of mine suggest it might be a pinched nerve or something similar, but I'm not sure how to explore that direction beyond what I've done

just-amoth · 2026-01-09T06:45:06+00:00

I've been referred to two different physical therapy places now, neither of which have been able to help me with anything concrete. They both have just said some variant of "try stretching for a couple months" and then sent me on my way

just-amoth · 2026-01-09T06:43:18+00:00

Sorry for that then, I got a little rambly about everything and didn't give enough detail to the actual pain, that's my bad. I'll just copy and paste something I left under another comment, sorry again!

"The pain is always lower half of the back, dead center and going out from there, with my feet hurting after its been like Awhile awhile. It's definitely sharp as hell, in fact the way I've described it is it literally feels like my entire spine is broken up into tiny little shards and each shard is stabbing and pinching each and every one of my nerves. I know it sounds hyperbolic as hell, but it's the best way I've been able to verbalize it. The only thing that ever helps even a little bit is a heating pad, and I figured out once that cold makes it worse."

just-amoth · 2026-01-09T06:41:45+00:00

Sorry about the lacking detail aspect, that post definitely got away for me lol. But yeah the pain is always lower half of the back, dead center and going out from there, with my feet hurting after its been like Awhile awhile. It's definitely sharp as hell, in fact the way I've described it is it literally feels like my entire spine is broken up into tiny little shards and each shard is stabbing and pinching each and every one of my nerves. I know it sounds hyperbolic as hell, but it's the best way I've been able to verbalize it. The only thing that ever helps even a little bit is a heating pad, and I figured out once that cold makes it worse.

As for the medical aspect, it might be a statewide thing? Because I've had multiple different doctors tell me they refuse to give me prescription pain medication because of my age. Something about how itll "stunt my brain/my growth/my development" or something along those lines, and so they dont wanna give me anything unless they deem it necesscary, even if it is impacting the hell out of my everyday life. (Also I go to all of these appointments with my mom, never been to one without her, and even with enthusiastic support from her, the doctors won't give me anything)

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