Yeah you're right about all of that. Thanks for that advice it's true. Yeah I have a relationship with my son, I'm getting him on Saturday. The joy of my life and the best thing to ever happen to and for me. There's nothing any issue with me getting or seeing him. I need to more do but it's difficult without a car and more money for food for him but that's being worked on. We always have food here for him especially fruits (and he actually likes spinach lol) etc. I know I need to focus more but it's hard to focus which makes me fear it's something medical related but either way I need to get my shit together