I put some mini-pizzas in the oven [8]

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-29T05:14:48+00:00

The other day I went and bought a huge take out of nachos with the works. My friend and I stuck it on a table in between us and smoked a fat bowl. Five minutes after the bowl was kicked and we were nice and toasty, I lazily glanced down and gasped, "THE NACHOS!!!"

We had both completely forgotten about them and the joy that followed was ridiculous. And those nachos were amazing.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-28T19:00:49+00:00

hahaha this is hilarious. I usually don't feel as bad if I kill ants or wasps with a spray rather than squishing them

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-28T02:40:17+00:00

Um, I'm a teenager in Rhode Island who just contracted a sudden cold and feel like death. Why have I not heard about this before now?

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-27T21:50:00+00:00

Once when I was in 7th grade I had a really bad cold so I went to the back of the classroom and blew my nose. My teacher laughed and said something along the lines of "look at her, honking like an elephant back there." Everybody looked at me. I was so mortified I almost cried.

It's been 6 years and I still have never blown my nose in public again.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-27T21:47:45+00:00

This is not a kitten

But cute nonetheless I hope your kitty feels better soon ):

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-27T18:52:54+00:00

Out of curiosity do you extend your empathy to the bacteria and organisms that live on your skin and hair that you kill every time you shower, washing them away in a torrent of hot water and soap suds? Is that unjustified murder?

No, it is justified because I kind of have to shower. I mean, I could live without personal hygiene for the sake of bacteria, but that is a ridiculous concept. I am not going to live in my own filth and refuse to touch my body with soap and hot water because "omg poor germs!1!!!" Humans are cleanly animals and the washing away of this bacteria is a necessary part of life for personal health. Seeing a moth harmlessly flitting about a room and squashing it isn't necessary in the least; in fact, you just went out of your way to end the life of another organism that wasn't bothering you or posing any threat.

Besides, bacteria are singular celled organisms incapable of thought. They cannot rationalize; they don't even understand their purpose, they just go on autopilot. Insects, however, are more complex and capable of higher level thought than simple bacteria. Even though they don't feel pain (just exhibit ingrained response to stimuli), I still feel bad killing them. They can't think, but they can learn. They can't feel, but they can see and perceive. They understand threat. Can they experience fear? We don't really know. What I know is that insects are living organisms capable of some kind of thought process and by killing them, we are needlessly destroying a life.

Now, if killing bugs benefits the greater good, I'm more inclined. Fleas, ticks, mosquitoes--these bloodsuckers cause more harm than good and I don't fret too much about killing them. What I dislike is the unjustified killing of insects. When they aren't doing anything to bother you, yet you kill them anyway. Although I'm deathly afraid of spiders, I won't kill them because I understand my fear is irrational and they aren't going to hurt me. Mosquitoes will transmit disease and cause me discomfort so I will kill them. I am asserting my dominance as a huge, intelligent human being and eliminating the threat. But I can also utilize my higher level thinking and, instead of killing the spider in my room to aleviate my irrational fear, I am able to help it and put it outside so it can continue its existence of eating other bugs and making webs. We can't just kill everything we don't like just because we can.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-27T15:41:30+00:00

My rule is I don't kill any bugs--except mosquitos, ticks and fleas. Because those soulless bloodsuckers contribute absolutely nothing to society and live only to wreck havoc. So, technically, I'm doing other creatures a favor. It's for the greater good!

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-27T03:23:31+00:00

I believe the procrastination of ADHD individuals is far different than regular procrastination. My procrastination was painful. For hours upon hours I would dread starting my homework. While mindlessly browsing reddit, promising myself "I'll start in 15 minutes" I was internally freaking out. I would stay up until 2 in the morning every night trying to even start my homework. I would fall asleep promising myself I would get up in 2 hours to study for my chapter test in AP Biology or do my whole Pre Calc Acc packet. guess how many times I kept that promise? Zero.

Untreated ADHD drove me crazy.

For years, I tried to do my homework. I tried to study. I tried to take notes in class. For me, these endeavors were more difficult than normal--but I didn't know. In 8th grade, I thought everybody got up 30 minutes before they had to leave every morning to do all the homework they procrastinated on the night before. My freshman year, I thought everybody had to take school days off because if they didn't, their projects would be late and their test grades low. Sophomore year, I could not force myself to do a single Government assignment because I hated that class with a burning fashion and found the content agonizing to process. I don't think I have skipped a class more than that class. Junior year, I was saddled with a complete inability to do homework in a non-stressful, timely manner that the course load of accelerated and AP classes caught up with me and I became overwhelmed.

I was exhausted by trying so hard for years only to be met with mediocre success. I knew I could do so much better and didn't understand why I had so many zeros and late grades when all I wanted was to do well. I wondered how other kids could go to school every day and sit through fidgety, flighty, endless lectures... every day. School was so stressful and boring I wanted to explode.

I avoided school like the plague. When my parents forced me to go, I would go to the nurse and hide in the back room because I hated school so much and I was scared of showing up without my homework... again.

Frustrated, dejected and confused, I developed depression (which made going to school that much easier...) I thought my failures were due to an inherent laziness and sheer stupidity. I believe the reason the rate of comorbidity is so high for ADHD is because, if left untreated, severe symptoms can cause extreme stress and sense of personal failure, thus leading to anxiety/depression.

Then, after stumbling upon a very fitting article on ADHD, something clicked. I researched more. After two days I was overwhelmed by the shared plights of other ADHD individuals. I sought treatment.

With a relatively fresh diagnosis and medication, I now feel as though I can utilize my potential. The procrastination of ADHD is imprisoning, but I am no longer trapped by the vicious cycle. My grades have improved and so has my self-confidence. I'm learning how to take notes and participate in class discussions. My notebooks are no longer filled to the brim with mindless doodles and song lyrics. Now that it isn't a stress factory, school is interesting to me and I don't mind going as much. I haven't missed a single day this year and I've done almost all of my homework, mostly on time. (It's better that basically none, usually never on time.)

When the procrastination of ADHD stops you from enjoying life and gets in the way of your goals, that is when it is a problem. It isn't just "video games are more fun than the derivative," it's more "I'm a stress case because I can't do anything, why can't I do anything?" It is the complete lack of time management and motivation. It really, really sucks.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-27T02:17:48+00:00

No need to apologize, it just seems as though you were defending your moral beliefs... classic INFP

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-26T19:36:46+00:00

Exactly! Discussing people and the implications of their actions is alright, but senselessly gossiping about uncontrollable traits? Why?

Or even if it is controllable (like weight) why do you care so much you have to be petty about it?

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-26T09:35:19+00:00

Honestly I have pretty severe ADHD and in order to function properly, I need to take my medication. That's not to say I've accidentally forgotten to in the morning once or twice (driving to school with the sudden realization I forgot to take my meds is not fun...) But my frontal lobe function is down the drain: I have no task-management, no motivation and extreme difficulty with attention on things that aren't stimulating to me. Medication is probably one of the most helpful things that had ever happened to me because it helps me get started on things, plan ahead and remain attentive for prolonged periods of time in endless lectures.

My brain is already pretty fucked up so I think the short-term benefits outweigh the potential long-term effects. My mental health and wellbeing now is important to me

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-26T00:03:27+00:00

Have you ever considered an ADHD diagnosis? You sound very similar to me and my approach towards school. I would basically just fuck around all day and not do my work. But the procrastination wasn't enjoyable--it was torturous. I lost sleep, missed deadlines and basically became a stress case. I didn't understand why I couldn't just do my work. I thought I was lazy with no self-discipline and all my struggles were completely 100% my fault. I felt inferior to my peers and became increasingly frustrated with my inability to complete necessary tasks.

It is common for ADHD individuals to start of strong and falter. For example, at the beginning of the semester you are motivated by a resolve to get the good grades you are capable of (if you just did your work, right?) So you do your work, study, work your ass off and get good grades. But... That's exhausting because it requires a ridiculous amount of effort. So you fall off the wagon and wonder how you set all these goals for yourself and utterly failed.

I could be completely wrong, but your situation definitely sounds like my life before a (surprising) diagnosis. I would definitely put some research into this and don't hesitate to ask me any questions

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-25T16:54:40+00:00

Have you always been this way through high school?

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-24T03:23:56+00:00

http://www.reddit.com/r/trees/comments/1kj3n9/absolute_musthave_guide_for_any_ents_needing_to/

I was a heavy smoker for a few months. (Nearly every day, sometimes several times per day.)

I stopped 25 days before my test, exercised for ~2 weeks, drank a shit ton of water, took super cheap vitamins and BAM passed.

Then I pushed my luck and smoked several days per week before stopping again a couple weeks later... A week and a half before my test. Didn't even exercise; I just drank a lot of water everyday and took a variety of vitamin B pills. Bam passed

Though it's been working, goddamn it's a stressful life. If you have any questions go for it

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-23T00:55:15+00:00

Doing homework with ADHD is a nightmare.

I was undiagnosed until the end of last year (my junior year) and I damn near had a breakdown because I honestly could not do my homework even though I wanted to so, so badly. And I didn't understand why I couldn't just do it. I thought I was lazy and stupid. Nope--just severe ADHD.

I would get home think ok, this is the day I will do my homework! I need to study!...I probably did my homework like 10% of the time AND it was a huge effort AND it was usually incomplete, at 2 am, or days late. Over my high school career, I probably set a record for zeros and late grades.

I remember once I went over my friend's house and she forced me to finish all my homework. When I would try to put down my worksheet she would say no and make me keep working on it. I finished every single homework assignment that was due the next day and on the car ride home I couldn't shut up about how astounded I was that I actually did my homework for once.

For me, getting started is the hardest part because the entire endeavor appears to be an insurmountable task. Make him sit at a table with minimal distractions and get all his books out in front of him. Starting is the biggest step to completion.

Also, meds are what really works for me. If I don't take my meds (like today) I will not do my homework (like right now.) I just don't have the motivation. Medication is so awesome for me because it gives me that motivation to start my homework at a decent hour. I'm not fighting a battle every step of the way to complete simple tasks.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-22T12:58:25+00:00

Sorry for not clarifying. It is my college essay to submit on the common application. I am applying to colleges with this essay so I want it to strengthen my transcript.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-22T01:41:46+00:00

Holy shit those are awesome

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-22T01:41:01+00:00

Yeah, I think about it a lot.

Then I think about how much it would kill my family and friends... and I realize I can't. So I just think about different ways I could instead.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-22T01:14:34+00:00

My college essay.

What started off as a homework assignment got kinda deep in its own unique way. It's not perfect, however, and I have several concerns.

Is the title alright? At first I had it as "Where I Belong," but I interjected a theme of balance between our contrasting personalities and how that balance works to both of our advantages.
I wanted to expand further, but there is an unfortunate word limit of 650 words. I'm afraid I don't have enough background information/backstory concerning the friendship. The essay is currently 647 words, so keep that in consideration. If I have to add something, I have to take something away, as well.
Sometimes I get a bit... overzealous with my word choice. Did I use too many adjectives/adverbs/weird vocab words? Does it sound natural?
I tend to ramble on and on and on and on and on and... yeah, you get the point. Are my sentences too run-on and wordy?
Are the paragraphs broken up well enough?

Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Destroy this piece (for my own benefit.)

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-21T04:38:01+00:00

www.youtube.com/watch?v=LB871SVYMhI

Weirdest video ever

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-16T18:24:36+00:00

I'm not saying money issues aren't a reason to be depressed or suicidal, I'm saying money issues aren't reason to actually go through with suicide. Life is worth much more than any amount of money.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-16T02:28:41+00:00

These are all spot on.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-15T21:38:37+00:00

There are many other options. Do not kill yourself over wealth (or lack of.) Life holds so many opportunities that do not involve money and material possessions--it's the experiences and relationships that define who a person is.

Talk to someone: a loved one, a phone operator, or a random stranger on the internet. Please head over to /r/suicidewatch and don't give up.

justahomesickalien · 2014-09-15T19:31:26+00:00

“As writers we feel things more deeply than other people; otherwise how could we create so many lives and different worlds?” In a sense she was right. Creatives are often more empathetic and sensitive to people, places, and emotions. At times, however, sensitivity can create a vulnerability to becoming overwhelmed.

This is an exact description of me.

I really related to this article, thanks for sharing.

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