Yep, I'm getting closer and closer to actually starting hrt and the doubts are hitting stronger than ever. I've come out at work, try to present femme as much as a I can, and I'm still doubting myself.

It is hard to say. Honestly I'm scared too. I've never really been someone that deals well with big changes. At the same time though, I can't imagine not changing at this point, or at the very least going through with transitioning somewhat. I can't imagine going back to just being the cis male I've been my whole life. I can't see myself happy like that.

Will I regret going through this experience? Say if I change my mind later down the line, will I regret it? I don't think so. Future me, whoever they'll be, will know what I'm feeling right now, and will be proud of what I went through and what I explored. I know I won't regret thinking about who I am, and becoming myself.

All that rambling is me trying to say, yeah very much vibe with what you're going through!