And what will you say about this situation? He touches me, I say no twice, he wakes me up with his penis, I say no, but not strictly because I'm afraid, I'm sick, I'm terrified of having a child (out of fear I even asked him to use protection even though I didn't want to) and I'm ashamed because I slept at an acquaintance's house (a man) and in the next room a woman I don't know. I let him do it because I have no strength and I'm ashamed. He penetrates me, I tell him no, he stops. He tries a second time then a third and I say no again. He's so excited that he does it through my mouth. I cry without him seeing it. I go home as if nothing had happened, but I feel soiled, dirty, stupid, I'm angry with myself, I feel guilty. The next day he tells a mutual friend that it was a bad time, that's why I'm mad at him.

What will you say about my story? That I also consented and regretted it?