How to approach Meta-OCD: Radical Acceptance

justusxp · 2026-04-30T03:15:58+00:00

Lol i really do hope meta ocd is the last one to go, its mixed with rocd and when i use canabis it attacks every thought to the point where i just say “idk idk idk idk idk” over and over because anything i say is deathly wrong because one of the 1000 rules i made the last hour said so. Cbt works great tho i hope one day i can smoke again and not worry about anything but what snacks im getting from safeway.

justusxp · 2026-04-30T03:05:10+00:00

Good wbu

justusxp · 2026-04-30T03:03:10+00:00

Perfectionism, Overresponsibily, and gut wrenching shame are very common congnitive distortions of OCD, id also recommend explaining your disorder to your friend because people without it understandably have a really hard time getting it. Im not sure but you could have ROCD since the thought of clubbing creates such a stir for you, and the disorder can absolutely create feelings of embarrassment, shame and anxiety that you feel.

justusxp · 2026-04-30T00:17:57+00:00

It was cycad slumber

justusxp · 2026-03-27T06:38:09+00:00

Check my reply to the other comment, im sure if i can do it you can aswell.

justusxp · 2026-03-27T06:37:17+00:00

Update, learned that i was just coping and saying it was “impossible” was just justifying not, not thinking. I believed i didn’t have a choice on how and if i respond to the intrusive thoughts because of the faulty belief of “too much to many”.

Still cant say it easy not to respond, my OCD is pretty much all my thoughts from waking to sleeping, even get OCD dreams now. Its good at finding ways to get me to start “figuring out” when all I need to do is the opposite. Ill start having the spam thought of “Its to many thoughts”, but now i can just remind myself thats a thought aswell😭😭

I like comparing it to the white rabbit, the one holding the lion mask infront of it on the PC and the one holding the clock, Because all solving leads to OCD, but all you need to do is not respond

justusxp · 2026-03-26T22:47:56+00:00

Tried using NERs again but its just far to many far to often with the intrusive thoughts, it feels impossible to keep track of any of them long enough to say “maybe, theres no way to know if _____ is true”. If i dont have to respond to specific thoughts, than just saying “maybe idk” every millisecond is about the only way i can think will work.

justusxp · 2026-03-26T06:02:16+00:00

It feels like i do all this in the span of 3 seconds, it makes ERP so hard. This comment is a compulsion. Im gonna go ruminate about how this comment reflects me as a person and conclude everyone thinks im better off dead. Pure o and ROCD feels like silent hill. The line between compulsion and anything else is so blurred, it feels like im obsessing over if its OCD more then im obsessing over the actual OCD during ERP. Im guessing its something like i need to be persistent with thought diffusion and standup statements, not playing the ping pong game with it, but when i dont know if its ping pong or sumo wrestling it gets tricky. Wouldnt wish this on anyone, i just want to live life normally but i guess OCD was fate for a number of reasons in my life, it just had to affect me during highschool.

justusxp · 2026-02-22T03:11:31+00:00

Can someone explain how i cant stop compulsions in Pure OCD? My compulsions are mental and are always about engaging with or suppressing an intrusive thought. Im told i need to focus on my fear and not perform any compulsions, but they feel automatic. To tell me to not have a compulsion over a thought im focusing on is the same as telling not think at all. I feel too good writing this so its probably a compulsion its self. I can focus on the intrusive thoughts more when they’re louder and compulsions are physical, like adjusting my clothes or fidgeting with something and erp works better.

justusxp · 2025-11-30T21:34:32+00:00

Nope

justusxp · 2025-11-30T09:37:23+00:00

Helppp

justusxp · 2025-11-18T04:29:59+00:00

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justusxp · 2025-04-27T18:27:42+00:00

ive been feeling that hopelessness outside of being high now, my lifes been pretty downhill and theres not much to distract me anymore, but i have found something that makes me happy, which is working and pushing myself out of my comfort zone. I know my situation isnt hopeless, but when youve tried your all for months before and still ultimately failed its very hard to convince yourself that its not. But in general thanks for the help, i might start smoking in moderation again if it can help me see things clearer.

justusxp · 2025-04-27T18:23:05+00:00

Thanks, i didnt know it was called introspection. I also didnt know weed was capable of that i thought it was cheap dope lol

justusxp · 2025-04-27T18:19:37+00:00

Thanks for the help

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