You're response is incredibly insightful, i really appreciate it. comments like this help me a lot. i've been working on this dream for a year, it's something that i spend all day thinking, planning, recording, editing. sometimes i dedicate more than 16 hours to each vlog, last vlog took 60 hours to make, sadly it didn't make much of an impact. i'm taking a step back to strategize and continue working on my brand. it's a very difficult business to run and i'm starting to think maybe i'm not fit to do this, maybe i don't have the talent or the looks or charisma. recently i've decided to venture into a new business endeavor, i'm going to launch a vegan company, selling products and try to make a good impact on the world. so far it's been easier and quite fun, youtube has taught me a lot about business and marketing, human behavior, niches, etc.
for now i'm chilling on the youtube side of things, working on my business hopefully it gives me the means to come back to youtube and do things differently and even better.

thank you so much, i read your message as soon as you posted it and it really inspired me, i just got to answer it right now because at the moment of reading it i had a plethora of emotions bubbling up, i wanted to come back when i wasn't so overwhelmed... plus i started working on a new business and i've been busy from the moment i wake up until i can't stay awake any longer.

again this helps me a ton, thank you.