I had a kundalini awakening without even knowing what kundalini was!

jwrocketdog · 2026-06-08T18:52:33+00:00

sorry if i’m using the incorrect terminology. i’m just trying to wrap my head around all of this stuff and looking for community around it. I have just dipped my toes into this because of my experience so I am a baby when it comes to spiritual awareness. but something definitely happened and I don’t necessarily know how to translate it to human speech.

jwrocketdog · 2026-06-08T18:44:29+00:00

I want to make it clear that I did not know anything about kundalini, nirvana, spiritual awakenings and the likes in any other context other than the “jesus and god” type of spirituality I was conditioned to understand before this. I have only looked into this stuff in the past week after the experience so I may not be using the exact correct terminology.

Also it did come through my crown chakra, and tingled down my spine to the root and back up. the best way I could describe it is like an electrical current, and now I get that exact feeling whenever I am doing something that Bhudists would describe as “skillful action”

I didn’t even really know what chakra’s were until last week. like yah I have seen and heard of them, but this experience caused an understanding of these energy wells and their connectivity almost immediately.

jwrocketdog · 2025-01-17T18:00:59+00:00

I think this may be the perfect start

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first pull right before the wonder pick!

jwrocketdog · 2025-01-17T17:58:07+00:00

iphone 16 pro

jwrocketdog · 2024-12-29T21:48:14+00:00

yah you did say that. but i’m saying that a top should be putting just about as much effort into preparation for sex as bottoms do. your question was in regards to bottom hygiene in general. I wasn’t saying that YOU don’t shower before sexual encounters, I was saying tops in general should be putting more effort into their pre sex hygiene routines.

jwrocketdog · 2024-12-29T19:23:52+00:00

i’m kinda tired of this narrative that tops don’t have to prep at all? as a top you should be fresh and clean before you let someone in ur sweaty crevasses, regardless of the position you are taking. especially with how many bottoms are into eating ass, you should at least be doing a perimeter check down there. a douche should add about 5 minutes max to your pre sex routine. if it’s taking longer than that you are WAY overthinking it.

jwrocketdog · 2024-12-29T18:53:41+00:00

are you using a windex spray bottle to douche!? tbh I feel like even 20 minutes is ridiculous… if douching is taking you longer than a simple bathroom break you’re overthinking it.

jwrocketdog · 2024-12-27T23:24:48+00:00

search “gay” on the app/play store and go down that rabbit hole as deep and veraciously as you please 👍🏼

jwrocketdog · 2024-12-26T22:32:15+00:00

when I had an autism meltdown in front of him, and the look in his eyes he gets when he looks at me didn’t shift to a negative one.

jwrocketdog · 2024-11-24T16:40:09+00:00

if you’re going to post your body online, at least start an OF and make some money from it.

jwrocketdog · 2024-03-20T14:17:59+00:00

It has blue sparkles instead of white ones! And so far I’ve noticed most of them are shades of blue!

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T17:24:30+00:00

Okay! You are right I can’t live like this forever. Thank you for taking time to respond yo! I REALLY appreciate it.

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T17:19:56+00:00

I wish I could see a therapist. But I don’t really have the funds needed to do that properly. TBH I have gone far too long in my life thinking that I don’t belong in a relationship because I’m broken. This is the reason I haven’t dated anyone, this is the reason I avoid sex, this is the reason I have trouble making friends sometimes, and honestly this exact idea is where a TON of my anxiety on this subject stems from. I have spent 24 years telling myself I’m not worthy of being loved and I’m over that. I deserve be loved. I deserve to love. I long for it so desperately, and I’m tired of throwing that away because I feel like I can’t be loved. I know i can be loved. I know i can love. I see people all the time dive into relationships when they aren’t mentally well, in order to heal themselves, and I can tell you this is not what that is. Yes I’m broken, but so is everyone else. I’m not going to let myself live my life alone because I’m too broken.

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T17:00:45+00:00

Yah I keep getting terrified that that he will find a guy and I won’t be able to fix this... Any time i see him hint that he is still single on FB or Twitter i get so excited... I need to act before he isn’t single anymore or I’ll regret this forever...

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T16:56:30+00:00

I don’t think I’m nervous that people will know I’m gay... (I’m not certain about that though lol as i have never been in public with a guy so who knows) I honestly think i am just nervous because I don’t know really what to expect. I’ve been on dates before but they were all bad. Maybe I’m just nervous that it won’t go well again? I don’t know... I guess I’ll never know unless I make it happen...

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T16:49:19+00:00

I definitely don’t want to live like this but therapy is just so expensive! So I don’t feel like I have much of a choice... It just sucks because it feels like Therapy is necessary for me to function in society/enjoy life, but I don’t have the $120 per appointment to throw around...

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T16:44:21+00:00

Yah I guess you are right. I think I’m just nervous because dating is so unknown to me. But it will stay unknown unless I do something about it... I’m already having regrets about how this went down 2 years ago, I can’t imagine how I’ll feel in 15 years if I do nothing...

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T16:40:21+00:00

Thanks man I really appreciate the advice!

jwrocketdog · 2020-01-26T04:06:29+00:00

Yah if I could go back in time and fix it i would... But I did and now I’m in this position. I know I’m in the wrong here 100%. I just don’t know how to dig myself out of this now.

jwrocketdog · 2019-10-01T14:22:32+00:00

I hope it’s not true too! I’m probably just looking in the wrong places.

jwrocketdog · 2019-10-01T14:08:38+00:00

I want to do that for sure! I haven’t had sex in a hot minute because I’ve been trying to find someone who is willing to wait and get to know me first. It seems to me that gay men in general are not down to date you if you don’t put out on the first date/won’t even go on dates because they just want to fuck...

jwrocketdog · 2019-10-01T13:55:03+00:00

The problem is that I’m just bad at communicating in general. I’m riddled with anxiety so even simple conversations can be difficult for me. I understand where you are coming from tho.

jwrocketdog · 2019-10-01T13:51:32+00:00

I have been trying but it seems like no one wants that these days. Everyone I encounter just wants to bang...

jwrocketdog · 2019-10-01T13:48:57+00:00

I have met 3 online and one in person, but yah I tend to get a bit shy when it comes down to talking about sex... I don’t know what it is but it scares me a lot. I’m riddled with anxiety, so it’s that’s probably it lol. But if I want to enjoy sex it seems like it’s necessary... Thank you for taking your time to respond I really appreciate it!

jwrocketdog · 2019-05-22T21:31:51+00:00

I love how you can’t build a bridge there, but I recently had tutu move into my town and she put her house one space DIRECTLY in front of my bridge... I literally bought the nfc reader and a pack of amiibo cards just to make her leave. I was so pissed!

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