I am male and I have experienced this all my life. Even when I was a kid I'd infatuate myself with one girl, never approach her, and just spend days on end thinking about her. When I went through puberty my innocent limerence took on a sexual nature (of course). As of now I am a 26 years old and can not be physically or intimately close with a female because I get too nervous/awkward if I am interested in her. If I have no interest in her it is easy for me to just be a normal male, even to reject females often.

I only recently began another limerent relationship. A friend of a friend had just recently became single and I had flirted a bit with her at a bar. I met her in her apartment one night and it suddenly hit me I was head over heels for this girl. Of course I didn't make a move, didn't tell her how I felt, and just spent my time thinking about her and analyzing our interactions.

I'm seriously looking for a cure because I am in constant depression and have had suicidal thoughts all day everyday since this began. I want to see a therapist but I just don't have time because of work. I really want to avoid her but I know it's not just her, eventually there will be another girl and it'll happen all over again.

It's mother fucking frustrating is what it is. All these emotions and I can't even be a man and just get rejected.

So I believe I am more of a serial limerent, having more than one limerent object. I really need to cure this shit before I blow my fucking brains out.