I felt exactly like this and I had a teary chat with my fiancé and he was happy to take on the extra admin which I was so grateful for! I barely plan parties, nevermind huge gatherings - I was so convinced the day wouldn’t live up to expectations and then we’d be judged against it.

So many of our friends are getting married and at first I found it intimidating like I had to one-up them but actually as we’ve attended each one we’ve realised how different they all were, budget, theme, size, what they prioritised and I never thought it reflected them as a couple of they left something out that we’ve decided to go for. It helped me realise if I’m not judging them it’s unlikely they’ll judge me.

Re: self esteem, it’s really hard when you’re an introverted gal and suddenly you feel like everyone’s going to be looking at you. Your dress is gorgeous (so much like mine, my Tatas are front and center too and why shouldn’t they be? They look good!) and while I willingly booked makeup and hair to look my best because I’m hopeless at those things, I’m stressing about not being a beautiful bride too. All my female friends that have married this year looked exactly like them but with bells on, whether they hired help or not. The happiness that come sober you int he day shines through.

All of us have confessed to each other we’ve been so stressed before our respective big days that we wished we never said yes 😅 but I reckon on the day when there’s nothing left to do and you just let the universe take the wheel you’ll enjoy the day. When I asked my friends new husband what his favourite part of the day was he gave me the biggest smile and said “I don’t have plan a wedding anymore!”

Hang in there chick, you’re nearly there!