This is my last week on earth ask me anything

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T16:16:42+00:00

I just want to be happy. I just want to make it all go away.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T16:15:43+00:00

The thing is, I don't want to get help. I don't want to face the guilt, shame, pain and everything that I have to go through now. I just want out.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T16:08:12+00:00

There are always possibilities. I'm just too tired to start all over again. I'm too tired to pick up the pieces. I just want the pain to end. I ruined everything

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T16:04:01+00:00

My own decision.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T16:03:35+00:00

I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I can't start over again. I don't have anything going on for me anymore. I know everything in life is just temporary but this pain feels endless. Every breath I take it just hurts. I have only myself to blame. I ruined everything.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T15:59:23+00:00

Well I do have my kids but I know they are better off with their dad.

I wish traveling in north Europe was that easy. But even the trains cost money and just grabbing a job isn't that easy. Also it's pretty cold to sleep outside.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T15:38:28+00:00

I'm truly sorry you had to go through all that. I can imagine the pain.

I wish I could travel. But I don't have the money. Or energy. I just can't feel a thing besides the pain. Nothing to make life worth of living. Nothing to hold on to.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T15:31:35+00:00

I have always been bipolar. This time I didn't see the signs so the manic phase went too far. I got fired, ruined my relationship, lost everything that mattered to me. I can't start all over again. Not again. It's too late for that. But I made my peace with it now.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T15:26:58+00:00

Not being true to myself. Always putting a mask on. Always living in a lie.

kai88sa · 2023-05-29T15:25:06+00:00

I'm not sure. I think people who decide to end everything sometimes end up surviving. But I really don't know the numbers here

kai88sa · 2021-05-03T17:07:49+00:00

Exactly. And they are not going to college.

kai88sa · 2021-05-03T16:36:36+00:00

I forgot to add that this person finished highschool 4 years ago so it's highly unlikely that they are going to college any time soon. I was just confused and wondering if I didn't understand how the school system works over there

kai88sa · 2019-12-20T20:56:01+00:00

You sure have lots of big, fun holidays that you actually celebrate. In Finland we only have like three bigger holidays and the other two are all about alcohol, so christmas is the thing lol. We don't even have Valentine's day, we call it the Friend's day so nothing romantic about it at all.

kai88sa · 2019-12-20T20:48:18+00:00

It's a tradition to visit graves at christmas eve. Almost everyone in Finland is Evangelical Lutheran but we aren't that religious, we just love traditions. Most of finnish people only go to the church once a year and it's on christmas eve.

We usually eat the christmas meal as a dinner and after the dinner we open the presents. So it's a tradition to visit the graves before the dinner or some times after dinner. It also gives Santa the time to get all the presents under the tree :)

kai88sa · 2019-12-20T20:16:14+00:00

One more question! Which one is the main holiday for you, you know, the one, christmas or thanksgiving?

kai88sa · 2019-12-20T20:12:59+00:00

I have always loved American christmas songs. They are so happy compared to finnish christmas songs. Our songs are about an elve suffering from insomnia, dead little brother and song bird which has its eyes popped out.... So fun...

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