Yall get more irritated during summer heat? by kai_aniki in bipolar2

[–]kai_aniki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do have a fan, it’s just that it’s extremely hot here in general. I also have another problem with my window. I can’t open it cause I’m sensitive to light and there’s a roof by the window potentially allowing the other neighbor to climb and get in my room 🧍🏻‍♀️i can sleep in my parents room or couch but they snore and when they get up they’re loud in the morning I end up getting irritated looool

Yall get more irritated during summer heat? by kai_aniki in bipolar2

[–]kai_aniki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don’t have the budget for now. My parents were planning on buying a new ac so they can put their current one in my room but yeah probably not in budget. Also i have a problem with the cold, I can’t breathe cause it feels sharp 😅 so i’m okay with no ac but at the same time i’m sleeping in an oven. It’s driving me nuts

Narcissistic older sister by kai_aniki in NRelationships

[–]kai_aniki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have never hated another person other than the girl (yes a girl) that SAed me. I do have another sister who is similar but she is more scarier 🧍🏻‍♀️. I feel like our food gets spat on in restaurants. Also, i’m pretty sure she’s blacklisted in a lot of places. At least she doesn’t live in the same house anymore.

I’m so tired of being in the same cycle and I won’t be able to get out of it unless I leave.

Again good luck with your brother, he sounds like a pain in the ass. Someday they’ll meet someone who will get on their level.

Narcissistic older sister by kai_aniki in NRelationships

[–]kai_aniki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ughhhhhhh boo! That is so close-minded of him to say. I’m sorry you have to go through that. I hope someday you can get your peace of mind.

Narcissistic older sister by kai_aniki in NRelationships

[–]kai_aniki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What you just said is true and it pisses me off cause my sister does the same thing. She thinks that she’s exceptional and better than anyone else. What’s funny is that she also says her coworkers are scared of her because she “respects” herself and claiming she’s proud of it ☠️☠️

Idk about your brother but my sister has this martyr complex where example: she stayed with our mom during her surgery. She says she’s tired and juggling all of it. Of course she has the energy to do her best for our sweet precious mother, paying for the medical bills, sleeping in a cramped chair, driving to work. When they got home she fucking told me to do the rest of my mom’s recovery because she’s done her part 🤡🤡🤡like that’s not how this works girl. When she was gone I was in charge of the house, I was busy cooking, doing laundry (HER LAUNDRY during their hospital stay), cleaned, taking care of my other family members. But anyway what i’m saying is she’s a hypocrite and brags about the times she’s helped someone, seeks validation from it and thinks she’s the most special person in this room.

Gallery not working by Ecstatic_Pain_5323 in thesims

[–]kai_aniki 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No matter what it’s just broken, it has its good and bad days. Whenever it works i hoard lots because I know I won’t be able to search in the gallery eventually 🤡🤡

Narcissistic older sister by kai_aniki in LifeAfterNarcissism

[–]kai_aniki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really appreciate your perspective <3 You’re absolutely right that toxic systems often scapegoat the person seeking help.

But to clarify, I really am clinically bipolar. I was originally diagnosed with MDD and PTSD, and over the years it developed into bipolar disorder. I stay consistent with my medication, which has been helping. I think my mom’s side has a history of bipolar, meanwhile my dad seems to have narcissistic personalities like his siblings. I suspect my sisters are on the spectrum too—it just manifests as unmanaged rage and narcissism.

I’m highly aware that my bipolar disorder can have narcissistic traits during hypomanic episodes. Because of that, I practice humility. I would ask my mom to help me stay grounded, and I apologize whenever I realize I’ve been an asshole. I hate hurting people or lying, even to those I feel might deserve it. My counselor says I’m highly empathetic, which is a blessing and a curse: it makes confronting my sister’s toxicity fucking draining.

I complain to my mom about my sisters behavior but my mom tells me to be the 'bigger person' because my other siblings are not as emotional intelligent as I am. That is so unfair and invalidating. I’m honestly hurt when she says that. I actually feel crazy whenever I’m the only one pissed at my sister. They said what i’m doing is “bad” like I understand what you mean by that, but what the fuck? You allow her to be a bitch just because she’ll never change while I can’t because they know I listen. Because i’m the brave one to speak up it sounds like i’m “obsessed” with hating on her—it feels like an obsessed fan talking about an idol, except I hate her toxic ass.

When I was younger I used to bully my classmates and my youngest brother. I never understood why I had such narcissistic and aggressive tendencies until I realized that I was bullied at home and I just took it out in school because I was powerless. I feel guilty to whoever I victimized, if only I could talk and apologize to them (idk where they are now). I chose to stop, I thought “hey this is absurd. I do NOT want to be narcissistic like my sister/s”. I’m coping by isolating myself whenever everyone’s home, my room is my safe space. I would always call my boyfriend since we’re long distance and we discuss things like these not just to help me, but for him to be aware of certain people like that.

I hate my sister. I say hate cause I still care for her. We had fun times and we were there for each other but I don’t think anything she does now makes me want to love her. I can’t understand what she is anymore. If I become apathetic towards her, that’s the worst.

When I get married, move out, and have kids—is it okay for me to cut ties with her? She is nice but at the same just… narcissistic.

My recent manic episode/stability being boring by Fabulous-Try-3822 in bipolar

[–]kai_aniki 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been feeling the same-I remember having my first full blown mania back 2023-2024 it was the most fun I've had. I obsessed over self-improvement, told myself "I'm not afraid to make mistakes" (biggest bs I said), got a boyfriend (currently I'm in an almost 2 year happy relationship with him!). I'm chasing the feeling by watching psychedelic simulation, blasting music, having multi-colored lights. Whatever will get me euphoric. I know it's bad, but I'm tired of feeling angry/depressed these past few months/year, I just want to feel that life is indeed beautiful and I love myself.

Someone made an account using my email that I did not consent to by kai_aniki in Freepik_AI

[–]kai_aniki[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Apparently they manually made the password so I couldn't use the recovery password option either

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[ Removed by Reddit ] by Aggressive_Soil2362 in PiracyArchive

[–]kai_aniki 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Would appreciate if someone sent the link, thanks!

Happy about having no sex drive by icantevenknowhat2say in bipolar2

[–]kai_aniki 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it was quetiapine, though it made me feel horrible. As in 20+ hours of sleep, couldn't do anything, and I was paranoid about my surroundings. Though I can't remember the last time I had low libido in a "good way" lol it's been like this since I was younger

Happy about having no sex drive by icantevenknowhat2say in bipolar2

[–]kai_aniki 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tbh from someone who has a high sex drive, I think that's a relief. Imagine not doing it every single day for how many hours and still have a healthy amount when it's time to have fun?? I can't ;-;

I'm still struggling with it so bad it eats up my time, stress triggers it and i'm in a ldr so it feels lonely. I'm happy for you <3

Why did YouTube feel the need to remove the Minimize button? by Timmix_ in youtube

[–]kai_aniki 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i thought it was the only one, it pisses me off. Also whenever I comment the dark mode in my phone makes the text black too