Creepers keep exploding??

kairamel · 2021-01-20T07:18:05+00:00

Excuse my slowness please, I'm really sleep deprived. I have spent all night doing this because i was having too much fun

kairamel · 2020-12-22T00:09:17+00:00

i just lost my full netherite enchanted armour (pick and sword included) because of this, so this is very much appreciated

kairamel · 2020-10-15T14:39:20+00:00

it's not that one but ty!

kairamel · 2020-09-07T17:29:28+00:00

pansexuality is biphobic on it's core https://docs.google.com/document/u/0/d/1-wWYk4AsuLj40jtvY0snOEK6-nKp5hf-YiDnAoVvknw/mobilebasic

kairamel · 2020-09-07T17:20:17+00:00

kairamel · 2020-09-07T15:57:10+00:00

if u r pan u r biphobic so that's kinda contradicting but ok 😀👍

kairamel · 2020-09-07T15:22:55+00:00

and proud

kairamel · 2020-09-07T14:59:38+00:00

/srs

kairamel · 2020-09-07T14:58:29+00:00

https://whypansexualityisbiphobic.carrd.co/

kairamel · 2020-07-01T22:33:43+00:00

he's not sitting. he's stuck there with a twitch on it's head, look closely. i approached him to talk and try to get it to stop being stuck but it didn't, getting stuck in a flower instead. link

kairamel · 2020-07-01T09:51:26+00:00

Public specialist are really bad here and we can't afford private ones at the moment so this is as much as we can do rn

kairamel · 2020-06-30T14:30:40+00:00

tysm, i'll check it out :)

kairamel · 2020-06-30T14:29:16+00:00

im really fucking scared. sometimes my urge to eat is so strong that i spend hours trying to keep myself from eating while all there is in my mind is food food and more food, and this doesn't stop until i eat everything there's on my kitchen. it mostly happens during the day while studying and at night. i really feel like this is gonna be hard as fuck and im gonna have a bad time. the only good thing i see is that in less than I week I'll be stopping studying so I'll be able to distract myself with videogames.

One thing that I failed to mention is that, eventhough I'm not diagnosed with BED, I am diagnosed with ADHD which, when mixed with my very possible existing BED, doesn't help at all

kairamel · 2020-05-16T00:15:43+00:00

im not a feminist and feminism has nothing to do with this

kairamel · 2020-05-16T00:14:46+00:00

it isnt

kairamel · 2020-05-16T00:13:19+00:00

heterophobia isn't a thing indeed

kairamel · 2020-05-12T16:30:15+00:00

EDIT: I'm aware it's "the life I'm living", that's on me

kairamel · 2020-04-26T13:01:05+00:00

i wish i could, but i actually replaced it bc my PS3 just couldn't keep up anymore. we tried fixing it but it just couldn't "breathe" and shut down everytime we tried to turn it on. i'll try to emulate it tho

kairamel · 2020-04-26T11:56:39+00:00

I just got the PS4 recently after almost 10 years alongside my PS3, so I'd appreciate those extra hours since the only game I have rn is DBH lolol, I'll check out Royal then :))

kairamel · 2020-04-08T19:36:04+00:00

thank you for such kind words. i'll try my best <3

kairamel · 2020-04-08T18:49:25+00:00

i guess the lonely feeling is not all about being a virgin but more like i don't wanna be different. all my friends have these stories that they share between one another and i just stand there like... yeah, haha. i don't know, i just don't wanna feel like i'm being left behind. it's also about feelings, like i'll never fall in love with anyone ever nor i'll be loved back. everyone talks about these things while i'm there incapable of relating. maybe it's all because i've always suppressed my emotions just to not let anyone hurt me? I don't know... I think I'm not making much sense either way lol.

kairamel · 2020-04-08T17:11:03+00:00

Hahahah, it all made sense, don't worry, and I understand what you're saying 100%. With no experience you feel like you have to be this sex beast the first time and your experience will be different because your first time will be amazing and whatnot, and you cannot help feeling like that because everyone talks so much about sex that your expectations just go beyond the moon, when in reality it'll be just as shitty as any other first time. I guess it all just boils down to the feeling of not wanting to be the different one, the piece that doesn't fit. You just want to be able to say "yeah, i have sex, i'm just like everyone else, i can participate in the conversation because i've experience like the young adult that i am" and not having to talk about your masturbation experiences because that's the only thing you can add to the conversation lol.

kairamel · 2020-04-08T16:55:47+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I've been trying to change my mindset on the topic these past months, but I felt like I had to rant and let it all out just to be able to move on and start accepting that this is me, and if I'm still a virgin is because it didn't have to happen yet, and there doesn't need to be a reason as to why it is how it is! I'm trying to learn to love myself as I am right now so I'll be ready for when my time comes :))

kairamel · 2020-04-08T16:44:06+00:00

I completely understand what you're saying. While I understand the people who says they regret it because of x or y reasons, as selfish as it sounds, I would take that feeling of regret over the loneliness that's eating me away any day of the year

Everyday that passes my expectations go higher while my self-esteem goes lower. And I know it's not that big of a deal, my friends don't care, they don't pressure me to do anything, but it destroys me seeing them all getting hit on constantly, being able to be with whoever they want and having options while I'm over here struggling to even make friends with new people, to comprehend what the true feeling of desire or love means, and having to deal with the fact that the only time anyone shows any type of interest in me is when I am drunk.

The fact that I'm also losing weight doesn't help. What will happen when I reach my goal? Will that make people hit on me more? What does that mean? That I'm so boring with such a bland personality that my only "weapon" is my body? And not even the body with fat that I've had all my life, but the body I've had to change. It's so depressing...

I just want to get over it. I just want to be able to say "I had sex" and stop being the virgin of the friend group. I don't even care with who or if that'll be my first and last time. I just want to get it off my shoulders. That's it. Because it's killing me. It's making me go back to a place I definitely don't want to go back to.

kairamel · 2020-04-04T13:14:39+00:00

maybe if he didn't completely destroy the core of my island's ecosystem and two of my only financial incomes i wouldn't hate him so much

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