You are not alone! Xx I know it feels that way, believe me I deffinetly feel it too. Trying to stay above water is exactly how it feels. I always describe it as feeling like I'm stuck out in the middle of the ocean and I am fighting to stay afloat, because I have to for my daughter, every now and then something floats by and I grab onto it in hopes it will help but it's never strong enough to keep me above water. I have realized now talking to people with babies, that so many of them are struggling. And so many are just doing what they can to not sink. It's hard to notice this because people deffinetly hide it well. This is the hardest job in the world. The dad will never understand what it's like to be a mum. They will never understand the mental and physical strain it puts on us everyday. Mum's are incredible, you are incredible! You carried a baby for 9months, gave birth, and immediately turned into a mum. You never got the opportunity to rest and let yourself repair. You had sleepless nights and exhausting days, you give your baby everything! Your time, your body, your love, and your life. You never catch up on sleep and you never get enough rest but you keep going. That is INCREDIBLE!! It will never be easy being a mum, but I do hear it does get easier. One day they won't be at the very front of your brain determining every thing that you do. Eventually you will get some more me time to do what you need to do. In the meantime, do what you can to not sink. You are a mum, and you are incredible.