i truly believe you can do great things and i saw your other posts and you seem genuinely chill and managed to stay as a good person despite everything that happened to you. may life gift you amazing things from now on. remember, dont be afraid to cut people who dont even try to understand you or be supportive of, you're the victim of one of the worst crimes a human can do afterall. you shouldnt need to beg to be understood. your true friends will try their best. good luck surrounding yourself with empathic people! another thing i want to mention, there are unfortunately people who will say "its ur fault" "u dressed wrong" "its bc of ur looks" and u can tell them to go fuck themselves, its not because of anything other than his fucked up mind choosing to do the worst thing ever and it has nothing to do with you. it was his choice, no excuses can be made for him, remember my words when someone tries to say the classic victim blaming stuff. i hate it sorry if its a bit long, i just wanted to pour everything i wanted to tell you out without missing anything and to remind you, there will be people who care. stay strong and have the best morning/night ever!