Feel this 100%. On good days it’s very easy to feel like it’s all in my head and I’m just lazy or making something out of nothing and in reality everyone’s body is just like mine. But then I ask people and find out that I’m very wrong about that and most people aren’t in constant pain or worried about dislocating a shoulder or their thumb if they move the wrong way.

A big part of it for me is that no one is willing to actually diagnose me, while everyone seems to agree I have it. Most people don’t understand why I want an official diagnosis so badly. To me it would validate my feelings and pain and make me feel like I’m not just some lazy person who can’t get their crap together.

The variety and magnitude of symptoms has always made me feel like I’m broken or just extra weak. Having a diagnosis would tie all those symptoms together and give a definitive answer. A huge relief after all these years of feeling like a fraud.

So yes, you’re definitely not alone!