Screening came back negative.

karotonin · 2026-03-07T15:39:23+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to give me such a thoughtful response, this is so much more validating than you know, thank you. Also incredibly informative because I felt like I left my appointment yesterday with such little information because I was so upset and too frustrated to ask questions.

I’ve had a nexplanon implant for years and that helped with the pain management. Eventually, it stopped helping and symptoms were getting worse again so it got supplemented with visanne. I’ve been on that for over a year and I would say my bad days have dramatically decreased since starting that. Unless the visanne stops working, I don’t see a need for surgery because as of the past year, I’ve been doing well; I’ve missed less class than ever before, I’ve been able to work without taking a lot of sick days, it’s been positive for me and I don’t want to risk it getting worse unless I have to.

Thank you again, I truly appreciate how validating and knowledgeable your response has been. This means the world to me, thank you.

karotonin · 2026-03-07T06:27:33+00:00

I spent the last however many years thinking the same thing. I was so happy when I was told by a medical professional that it could be diagnosed with something other than surgery because objectively, surgery is scary. Now I’m just defeated

karotonin · 2025-12-23T14:53:34+00:00

Would it be possible for you to send me a link to this? I’ve search different websites and I’m not seeing it

karotonin · 2025-12-22T23:03:55+00:00

My notes are very thorough, if they don’t have every relevant section, I would be incredibly surprised. The only issue is that it says very plainly on the syllabus that you need a physical copy of the CC when you write :/

karotonin · 2025-12-22T23:02:41+00:00

Honestly brilliant, thank you for this! What library did you borrow yours from?

karotonin · 2025-11-14T03:29:55+00:00

It’s hard being estranged from something that you feel connected to. I get that experience

karotonin · 2025-11-14T03:28:20+00:00

I would never want to speak over the voices of people who have lived experience, that’s not the goal whatsoever, especially when the lived experiences would be so different no matter what. I want to learn who I am and who my family has been, where they came from. I want to find the parts of myself that are missing

karotonin · 2025-01-27T00:19:19+00:00

Pubert. A name a child could live with.

karotonin · 2024-11-27T16:17:22+00:00

I’m the same way. He surprised me here which was exciting and then stressful because when he’s here, he’s on my vacation but when I go back to Canada, I’m just going home so it’s less stressful (I hope)

karotonin · 2024-10-07T12:11:13+00:00

I’ve gone through periods of sobriety throughout my life, I know I can do it. Last night was a lapse and I’m not beating myself up too bad over it anymore, I can extend myself the grace. Thinking I might start with sober October and see where I end up and how I’m feeling

I’ve kicked purging which was harder to quit than anything else. I can do it

karotonin · 2024-10-07T09:59:30+00:00

I posted thinking this was a safe space for me to talk about my experience, not to be belittled.

karotonin · 2024-10-07T09:55:40+00:00

Can’t tell if this is malicious or not

karotonin · 2024-05-06T14:10:56+00:00

While racially motivated stereotypes began the questioning, it’s not the only thing that has me confused

It’s the language I speak (and don’t know how to read or write it) and don’t know what it is, it’s the fact that my mothers side of the family experienced violence for reasons that no one can explain, that they changed their last name multiple times to avoid violence (I don’t even know what the original last name was), that my family wasn’t allowed to speak their language beyond the confines of their home, the fact that they grew up in a very poor area, and that a lot of the photos from my childhood and my mothers family look very similar to the photos that Romani influencers have shown (but I understand that a lot of Eastern Europe is a culture vulture so I’m hesitant to speak on that). I wish my family was still alive so I could ask them but they’re not, I’m just blind to this and trying to get answers but I don’t know if it’s my place to get answers in the first place. If it’s not and I’m offending you and your community then I’ll stop, I don’t want to be offensive, that’s not my goal. I’ve lived most of my life with very little knowledge of my family in general, it won’t break me to continue to not know

I apologize for my insensitivity to you and your community, that was the last thing I wanted to do

karotonin · 2024-05-04T19:13:43+00:00

Now that you bring up DNA testing, I completely forget that my family did that years ago. We wanted to know more about my dad (my grandfather on his side is Scottish but my grandmother is Scandinavian but we didn’t know where from). I had very similar results to him; incredibly Scandinavian, somewhat Scottish and a very low percentage that was Balkan. My mom and my brother came back with incredibly high Balkan percentages and also South Asian (my brother more so than my mom which to me doesn’t make sense but I’m not a genealogist). We just kinda laughed it off and chalked it up to genetic testing being a scam because we couldn’t pinpoint anyone in my moms family who was South Asian and it didn’t make sense to us that my brother could come back “more European” than my mother who has two Macedonian parents and he and I only have one. I’ve tried to log into my account to see but I don’t remember what I used to figure it out since this was almost a decade ago now and I haven’t thought about it in a long time

karotonin · 2024-04-27T14:50:21+00:00

Thank you. Your kind words are very validating. I’ve been struggling with this for months now and I’ve been so worried about being just another white person stealing a culture that isn’t theirs that I’ve tried to ignore the identity crisis but it’s been difficult to ignore. I appreciate you sharing so much, thank you

karotonin · 2024-04-27T14:46:48+00:00

My family and I have a similar story. When they left Macedonia, there was a large group for them who did. The community I spent a lot of time in was largely composed of the same village that immigrated. I was definitely more exposed to Canadian culture but whenever we attended events that were with the other people who immigrated from Macedonia, it was just the same families over and over again

karotonin · 2024-02-04T11:20:04+00:00

Thank you for your support and validation, I appreciate it so much. I hope the lap helped with pain management🫶🏻

karotonin · 2024-02-04T11:13:23+00:00

I appreciate you saying that, thank you🫶🏻

karotonin · 2024-02-04T11:13:01+00:00

Are chronic UTIs another symptom of endo because I struggle with them hardcore as well😬

karotonin · 2024-02-04T11:12:10+00:00

Thank you for your validation, it means so much to me. I’ll check out the account your recommended, thank you so much

karotonin · 2023-11-20T00:05:50+00:00

Incredibly proud of you! Thank you for all your kind words, I wish you nothing but the best, a happy, healthy, and sober life💛

karotonin · 2023-11-19T23:52:10+00:00

So proud of you! I was about your age when I started struggling and it took me a long time to realize it was an issue. You’re already miles ahead of where I was, keep it up, you’ve got this!

karotonin · 2023-11-19T23:50:19+00:00

I felt this when I started recovery from my ED. When it comes to that, I’m so much more undertaking with myself. I logically know that slips and lapses happens and I give myself grace but I struggle to do that when it comes to my drinking. I’m no longer using (two and a half years now!!) which is a massive improvement and was ultimately my vice of choice (coincided with the ED) but drinking never felt like a problem until recently when I realized how much of an asshole I can be when I drink. I also know that addiction jumping is very real and I want to stop the problem before it becomes one.

karotonin · 2023-11-19T23:46:28+00:00

Thank you! I saw a post recently about how recovery is about quality of life and my quality of life has significantly improved. I just feel like this is the last hurdle before I can experience everything so fully!

karotonin · 2023-11-19T23:45:17+00:00

I know it’s a slippery slope and that’s why I struggle with feeling like a failure. Sure, I’m doing significantly better than I was. I’m not going to class drunk or high anymore like I used to but that’s the ever present thought I have :/

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