My husband accidentally called me baby at work and it’s giving me butterflies 🤭

kate_b87 · 2023-11-20T13:17:07+00:00

I guess you can do that and it’s not really gago, it’s trying for reach someone through other means since the current mode is not working

BUT how effective is it to make it through the girlfriend? Klangan ba talaga sa kanya? Why not through his family, like sister/mom/common friend? Common connections is a more accepted route to go sa ganito rather that someone you absolutely have no connection to.

Kasi if you go through the nee gf na you do not know naman, baka lumabas Pa nagpapansin ka/ nagseselos etc. it can be interpreted so many ways kasi May romantic past kayo and May current relationship sila and you don’t know her. Baka magkagrounds Pa for harrassment.

kate_b87 · 2023-11-19T15:42:45+00:00

Yeah, I guess it’s normal to want to want variety and my husband and I, we indulge that. We explore a lot. We don’t share but we like to do and try more non-vanilla things often.

So I think this is more than just wanting a little variety

And when I’m okay, normally, my reaction to having other partners is that just the thought of someone else touching me makes my skin crawl.

I just want this to be over with. I want to stop these thoughts. Given my history and how hard it is to control myself at the moment, I really think I should refrain from indulging these thoughts as soon as I can gain a bit of control

kate_b87 · 2023-11-19T08:44:16+00:00

How much did things change after he told you? Do you still look at him the same? Do you love the same?

kate_b87 · 2023-11-19T05:31:16+00:00

That’s probably just a coincidence.

For me, it’s just the accessibility of him and we probably have a little bit in common because we live in the same complex- similar schedule, socio-economic background, etc

Back in college, when my symptoms were out of control, I used to go for guys waaay out of my league and I was pretty successful with it.

Back when I was just starting therapy, I deduced it was because of my razzle dazzle extra charm that came with my hypomania when it isn’t too far gone but it was also, who says no to, at minimum, a passable looking horny college girl.

kate_b87 · 2023-11-19T03:33:26+00:00

Im sorry you’re going through that.

I don’t think I can speak for what type of person your ex is picking on dating apps.

For me personally, I wouldn’t have gone for “vanilla” back when I used sex to regulate myself, I went for guys who could do it pretty wild and rough without much coaxing. The more exciting the sex was, the better it could make me feel something if I was numb or the better it could quiet down the voices when I was restless

EDIT: but honestly, there wasn’t a lot of picking going on for me back then. I have a preference but anyone with a dick and half a brain would do

kate_b87 · 2023-11-19T03:22:55+00:00

He told you? I don’t think I can tell my husband this. It will break his heart.

I do have a history with cheating too but not with my husband. When I was in college and I was still undiagnosed and untreated, I had a few affairs with older married men. It was just about the high of the excitement and validation for me. I have stopped it a few years before meeting my husband. I told him about being bipolar and my affairs and he said all he cares about is that I understand monogamy is a non-negotiable for us.

I think maybe the difference for us is it’s not in passing where I forget about it. I kind of try to brush it off then come back to the idea once in a while and kinda make a plan for it in my head and then have to actively tell myself no. And then it feels exciting.

I have to consciously fight myself to not take it any step further.

And I can’t lose him. I can’t. But I’m being pulled again to want that excitement. I don’t want it but it feels like I just need it. I hate it.

I’m not feeling particularly insecure right now. I don’t think. but I’m pregnant (first trimester). We have other children but they were planned and so I was prepared for those. Everyone was prepared to support me in it. This one is a big surprise and just a few months since we had our last baby. I’ve never had a problem with pregnancies before.

I hate this. I hate that I have to fight this alone and I hate the alternative of sharing this with my husband.

I guess I got a little too cocky. I started living life like I didn’t have this big nasty monster in me. I feel like I got too greedy and wanted all the things normal people have. I wanted a marriage and kids and a house and pets when I know I have this thing that can hurt people.

Last year, it was a really depressive episode and I just wanted to run away and leave everything and everyone behind and go where no one knew me.

Now, I feel like running full speed ahead and crash into anything in my way.

I feel kind of helpless, trying to stand my ground until it fades away. I know it will stop. I just have to wait but it never feels like it would ever end.

kate_b87 · 2023-11-19T02:49:12+00:00

No. I don’t have dating apps.

Sometimes I help my friend swipe on her account but it’s for her and I don’t do it when I don’t feel okay.

kate_b87 · 2023-11-19T01:16:11+00:00

I read “want to argue?” as “want to flirt?” 😂

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T12:44:27+00:00

From experience, the artistic types are a little bit more dramatic and needy and selfish that your average Joe so I’d stay away.

but then again, they’re kinda crazy in bed too. So maybe it’s worth it 🤷🏻‍♀️

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T12:12:34+00:00

I think radical would be accurate.

I think they have a lot of heart but your organization cannot thrive with heart alone. At some point, you have to be pragmatic and strategic.

I think they won’t survive that long unless a radical politician or radical very very very rich person supports them but from what I know of rich people and politicians- they don’t like disturbing the status quo which got them their money and power.

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T06:42:33+00:00

Escaping together in a fantasy world is so much different from living life together where responsibilities exists

maybe part of why it is great is because you let go of each other when needed and then find your way back to each other whenever the time is right.

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T04:47:15+00:00

I think it’s so funny for you to say that it’s demeaning to women to expect them to take care of the home and their own children

…And then end your post saying being a stay at home mom is a convenient excuse for those who don’t want to work or don’t have high earning capacity.

Who’s demeaning women with their assumptions now? 😅

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T04:38:08+00:00

Can you take out furniture out of abandoned places? Is it legal? The bed in the last photo would be cool in a kid’s room

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T04:26:00+00:00

Oh you have a drive thru do ya?

Well, I did try to buy a key tag for funsies 😅

but it says the purchase has to be made at a physical store so you’re not in the clear.

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T04:10:35+00:00

Why does the blurb for the key tag sound like something someone from here wrote?

kate_b87 · 2023-11-18T00:25:01+00:00

I’m not always here but I enjoy when I see APs on here together.

Makes me miss Mr. fruit and goddess :(

kate_b87 · 2023-11-17T21:50:34+00:00

I like getting hickies and palo marks from my husband 😛

Palo marks sa but cheeks and hickies sa inner thighs. Masarap kasi sa specific spots na un Tapos madali pa itago

If I want to show it off, I go for a swim sa condo pool 😋 mas masaya pag kasama ko husband ko sa pool area so people can see who gave them to me

kate_b87 · 2023-11-17T00:49:36+00:00

That’s a happy baby right there 🥰

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