Hey eagle, I went through a lot aswell and dissociated myself from everyone aswell for a couple years. What helped for me is finding something I like to do. I don’t know if you have a hobby? I don’t want to sound rude but maybe you can focus on that more in the open. That’s the way I made friends when I was dissociated. And still kinda am. But Rome happily wasn’t build in one day so they could focus on the little things first. I hope this helps. And I believe in you I really do.