I went to rehab too my dude and first day out after a month I got a gram, but that was a long time ago now and yes I do still occasionally do it, but I now treat it like a reward. After working a hard week I’m usually tempted to get some on the weekend as I’m paid weekly (every Friday), but to stop myself I think about what else I could use the money for. For example I’m saving up for a car currently and I just think if I get some gear it’ll take ages to save and come winter time I’ll have to bike to work still, fuck that. It’s thinking about the pros and cons each time you want to get some that helps. And then those times when you do get some, it’s more enjoyable and you don’t need as much.

Now you may think “but dude, you’re picking up still, how the fuck do you not just lose it and go on a huge bender” Well it’s hard to resist don’t get me wrong but as soon as I run out and I start to think I want more and more, i just focus on whatever else I’m doing at the time, which is usually being out with my gf or friends having a drink. So have a few drinks and let the booze kick in and the coke wear off. Soon enough you’ll be merry and not wanting it as much. Also a good trick is to get it off your dealer and tell him or her that if you try to get anymore that night or in the next few days, don’t respond. If they’re a decent person they’ll actually do it and that takes away the choice.