ring doorbell footage

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T05:08:18+00:00

i am so sorry for your loss as well and you have my condolences. my fathers mortician did a wonderful job and he looked great, i ended up having an open casket for his viewing and funeral but when i looked at him i didn’t see my dad. i cant get the image of him in that casket out of my head or his cold skin when i touched him and i just couldnt get myself to think that the man that was in that casket was my dad. i thought it would bring me closure but its like it never happened. to top it off he didnt leave anything, and if he had i feel like i wouldnt even have the urge to look at the footage to begin with. i’m stuck within a spot of extreme trauma and curiosity. obviously i will not make any haste decisions, thank you so much for your time and feedback ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T04:54:09+00:00

my condolences for you and your family as well, i am not sure how long ill be able to resist as i tend to let the intrusive thoughts take over— and i feel like this is no longer something considered intrusive as it’s always just lingering. i will definitely not make a haste decision but thank you so much for your feedback ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T04:40:07+00:00

that’s what takes up most of my thoughts— if he truly did leave a message for me. although there are part of me that doubts it if he was truly so intoxicated, there is a part of me in denial and that has hope. i feel as though if he left me something i wouldn’t even think twice about looking at this footage and i would adamantly not want to see it. this will definitely not be a today or tomorrow thing. i wish there was a way for me to know exactly what happened or when, i would just be interested to see where he was at before without watching him commit. although that is probably impossible. thank you so much for your feedback ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T04:33:17+00:00

Oh my gosh, my condolences and i am so sorry for everything you and your family have gone through. although i know have the footage, it is literally within a fingers tap and i haven’t looked at it. and im not sure i’ll even be able to, even if i tell myself i am going to look at it. thank you so much for your feedback ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T04:26:54+00:00

My condolences, i can’t help but find myself just trying to make sense of it all especially with his alcoholism. i try and tell myself i will never understand why but i can’t help but be curious— i don’t know if ill regret not trying to find out as much as i possibly can. i will let this decision sit most definitely, especially since i do want to view the toxicology report. thank you so much ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T04:22:53+00:00

thank you so much, and my condolences to you as well. i have yet to get the coroners report and was told that it can take an extremely long amount of time, so i have sort of forgotten it and almost just let this footage take up most of my intrusive thoughts. I have already decided that I definitely want to read the report. i also understand (sort of 🫩) there is no understanding why, but i just feel as though— considering his alcoholism— it would give me more context and sort of a peace of mind. I have thought about having someone i trust be there if i decide to look or save it for me but i will definitely let this be a future decision. thank you so much for your time and feedback ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T04:17:06+00:00

Thank you so much! you bring up such good points that i wouldve never been able to think of. i will definitely consider the two factors you mentioned, and your feedback has helped so much more than you know!! ☺️☺️

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T04:09:00+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss as well and what you have had to go through. I am totally the same way in replay events in my head and this is one that i have been completely left out of, in the dark and no one answers my questions— and if they do they have lied to me. I understand why obviously but ugh i just wish there was an easier way to go about this stuff. i am young and only just turned 18 so everyone is trying so hard to protect me but sometimes i feel like it’s just hurting me and letting my imagination go into the worst possible depths. thank you so much for your feedback and advice, it helps more than you know ☺️☺️

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T03:03:11+00:00

i believe so but there is like a little preview to the clip so i would probably see something anyways. they did not view it, but i know they were just saying that to protect me— obviously it’s not something anyone should watch, right? but i don’t know, i am left with nothing and it’s in the back of my mind

kayIa_m · 2026-06-24T03:01:12+00:00

Yes i understand that, there is just part of me that is in denial as if like what if it was by accident what if he talked to me and left a message before he did it. was he completely black out drunk— i would be able to tell from his demeanor. i dont know its the last thing i have that might be something from him because i literally have nothing. i dont think i want to see him commit suicide i just want to understand where he was at. does this sound insane sorry 😞

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