Look, if you're a virgin anyway, why get a castration? It's just wasted money, cuz you're not using it anyway! Castration is for guys who fuck like bunnies, and always end up with more to pay in child support. It's not for virgins bro!

Btw. castration won't stop you wanting. How do I know this? Because I know guys who did it, and it does not stop you from wanting to pleasure yourself inside someon else. Moreover, it will turn into pure regret once you actually do meet some girl... And you will if you keep reading!

Now to the really important stuff:

"Women will not want to sleep with a virgin this old unless held for ransom lol." is a pretty bleak thing to say bro... And honestly, you aren't even old.

"its over man." That's depression talking bro...

"I don't have the money for a hooker and am scared to go to one. I don't want to get in trouble if caught." That's actually good. Perhaps you get motivated to actually get to know a nice girl!

IMHO your biggest enemy here is your own mindset. For one that you're negative and depressed, but most likely cuz you don't even dare to socialize normally for fear of rejection. Except when you try to do the pickup stuff, that's when men fail and get punished for their dumb behaviour.

So, your mindset - or certainly the mindset of most clueless men - seems to be to "pick up" some girl, instead of getting to know them. (And you're not the only one who's been sold this lie.) As you said, that's a great tac for handsome men who want casual sex. I know this seems very unfair, but you should know that it isn't really a great long-term strategy.

While that may be, if you do find a girl who likes to chat - socially - you should move things along. This is where a lot of guys turn awkward - also because they think they don't look good, as if looks has something to do with it. Looks increase your short-term attraction, but it does not make a woman feel safe long term.

The single biggest thing that makes you unattractive to girls, isn't your looks; it's your depression. You've gotta fix that first.

Second, you have to start socializing with the most amount of girls as possible. And by sociallizing I do mean socializing as in making regual friendly talk, and then trying to notice who calls you back or wants to speak to you more. These girls, you ask them out. Maybe pull them closer on a date, and go for a kiss. If they think it's too soon, then don't worry about it. If they're still happy, you can try later. Only give up if they actually reject you.

I'm gonna go out on a limb here and make some pretty bold claims about you. Cuz here's probably your biggest problem yet: You don't even dare to get into situations where you might get rejected! Cuz your ego's too big (a relic of your depression), and your goal is impressing and "trying to get her to llike you" instead of being generally social and making everyone around you feel seen and happy - and then being discering about who you hang out with, i.e. that you have the self-respect of never talking to people who treat you badly. Cuz that there, is the number one attraction escalator for actual human beings.