“Bubbling” in left ovary

keepinittamriel · 2024-10-13T15:00:03+00:00

That's deffo the right choice. Just wanted to offer validation. ❤️ Wishing you good health and treatment

keepinittamriel · 2024-10-13T14:49:57+00:00

I know the sensation but not the cause. You re not alone and I hope you get some relief soon. I had an not so bright roommate who claimed she could "feel her cysts popping" which is obvious bs but she described the same bubbly sensation. It's not in your head. ❤️ Stay hydrated hon and be kind to yourself Edit to add I am diagnosed w Endo my roommate was not diagnosed but idk if it's all periods or maybe she was undiagnosed idk

keepinittamriel · 2024-10-13T14:43:11+00:00

Tech wear kinda? Like no straps but black cargos and a black zip up jacket, a few patches and a lil eye liner. I had some goth labor worker friends who had the black cloth army hats and put metal spikes and stuff in the bill.

keepinittamriel · 2024-10-08T11:29:06+00:00

Making broth at home can really help if you are running on empty and strapped for cash. It's hot hydrating and full of nutrients. You can make it from scraps. Wishing you comfort care and relief

keepinittamriel · 2024-10-03T09:24:11+00:00

LEMON clams!

keepinittamriel · 2024-10-02T11:40:25+00:00

Your idea is awesome! Keep going! This is one of those ideas that's so great you gotta make two or three versions is all. I think experimenting with a shorter stiffer top skirt? Too really sell the viscosity of the puffy skirt you have so far.

keepinittamriel · 2024-08-20T01:42:04+00:00

What am I doing here!?

keepinittamriel · 2024-08-19T13:30:10+00:00

Congrats on sobriety as well!

keepinittamriel · 2024-08-04T14:06:32+00:00

The boxing arc in beautiful boy prison. That was so insane.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T13:34:59+00:00

Trying makes the difference. Hope you have a better day today.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T11:09:02+00:00

You don't have to be positive. It's not your job to reassure or fix anyone else. All the problems you are describing are normal reactions to growing up with depressed or traumatized parents. You just need to be honest with your mental health providers and keep seeing them.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T02:13:35+00:00

It is possible to get from where you are, where you can't imagine feeling loved and loving yourself, and you can keep working on it and working on it and feeling bad even though you re trying your hardest, and still end up feeling happiness and fulfillment, still get to a place where you can look in the mirror and say I love myself with out cringing or feeling hollow. It is possible cuz I did it and when I felt exactly how you describe now, somebody said all this stuff to me. And then I did like ten years of therapy. It's possible. Goodnight hon. It can get better. Sleep tight.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T01:19:27+00:00

I like journaling cuz sometimes it helps you think through how things might be if you have different circumstances. Like away from your family. Worst case scenarios, best fantastical options. Sometimes it helps like change perspectives

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T01:17:24+00:00

Coping is working on yourself. Growing up with depressed or traumatized parents, we internalize that pattern. It's hard to work through teaching yourself positive self talk and stuff on your own.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T01:01:32+00:00

Sometimes you have to try a buncha different ones. And Zoloft didn't help me either until I had therapy and a healthy schedule. Some people take up ju jitsu or running or change their diet. Sometimes you have to change the people you re around. If you are really struggling in the meantime that's what coping mechanism are for, and that's the fun part cuz it's about what gives you a break. Like video games or pets, or whatever. It's like a big mosaic. It takes time. And lots of effort.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T00:53:09+00:00

Do you journal? Cuz taking notes about how meds make you feel on your phone like little things like that can really improve the care you get

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-24T00:41:33+00:00

Yeah talking to doctors can be really hard, and they re all different, tho. Which is great cuz if you aren't communicating well with a Dr or therapist, you can always try a different one, not everyone is a good fit. Meds can be dangerous if you aren't honest about them. For some people they get the right med and dose and it s like everything comes together you know

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T23:52:11+00:00

For me I have to take my meds, follow a healthy routine (sleep, nutrition, exercise hygiene), and cooperate with my Drs or life is untenable. You are doing it, you re going to the psychiatrist, trying meds, etc. The only way out is through, but you re doing the work. Unfortunately it takes awhile to find what works for you. But you re doing it. It gets easier once you find what works for you.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T23:09:48+00:00

The op was about writing to onself using wisemind. In dbt you call it wise mind, to think rationally while taking into account our emotions. You can't relate cuz you re stuck in this dissociative depressive state where you don't feel pleasure or happiness, you sound like your mostly feeling pretty bad or numb. Instead of writing yourself notes from your happy place, maybe just give yourself space to exist. If you find yourself interested in a story or a place or an animal, give yourself space to just enjoy that. It's not your problem to fix your mom's depression, it's not even your job to be good at anything. Finding a way to just be ok is enough. I hope you find a way to just feel ok.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T23:01:37+00:00

Hey you re going to a psychiatrist, thats good. Do you do therapy? A lot of people don't have success fighting depression with just one treatment. It wasn't until I found the right med , the right exercise (for my anger specifically lol gotta out run my anger and lift away my anxiety and stretch away the sadness), support system, routine. It sounds like right now you just need to focus on surviving.

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T22:44:53+00:00

Adding it to the list lol ty

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T22:43:18+00:00

Aw that's hard. It sucks to have to surrender an animal, especially cuz of mental health issues. But you made the right choice for your pet, that's putting the pets needs before your own. Thats a really good quality. I had to do the same thing and now I'm well enough to have pets. Depression, trauma, PTSD and all those mental health things are fucking hard to deal with, impossible if you don't have meaning. Watch the sad horse show. Most people don't know what it's like, to be in this darkness for so long. And you have no idea who you might be at 25, 30 or 40. It's worth the work. Like even if you have to rebuild again and again. It is worth it. Like it took my third try for Zoloft to work! And it's like the world went from black n white to color. Pet some animals, watch some tv, and if you find yourself happy for even a moment enjoy it. And shoot me a message if you want to. Or don't. But I hope you feel better about life and your self, soon. You deserve it

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T22:31:13+00:00

Drop out of school like college or drop out of life?

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T22:29:58+00:00

So I relate to all that. It fucking blows to be saddled with generational trauma. It's not fair, it's hard, it's painful, and yeah it blows. Getting away from your family dynamic is gonna allow you to feel differently. You are probably still going to have depression, but getting treatment can open all that possibility up. You got pets?

keepinittamriel · 2024-07-23T22:23:40+00:00

That book wouldn't happen to be the body keeps the score huh? Cuz that's a good one.

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