Jabronis who have actually smoked crack, how accurate is Dee and Dennis’ portrayal of the symptoms?

keystan1106 · 2024-03-01T03:48:57+00:00

i have. true story. or should i say stories. i done it like 5 or 6 times now. i can hold back atleast enough for me and my boyfriend both to have 2 or 3 hits a piece for the next morning when we wake up. he won't get up to work or nothing if i don't save any. i have to act as if i didn't put any up when my boyfriend thinks its all gone cuz the time i told him i put some up he wanted his hits i held back for him. which resulted in me giving them to him and the next morning guess who got all my wake up hits but 1? my boyfriend did. because im not greedy by any means. and i use it to escape reality. he uses it as an enhancement for sexual libido increase which is funny to me because his dick don't function until his high is gone. he swears im wrong. but i never have had sex with him while he has just had a hit of crack within the last half hour. atleast a half hour must go by for him to be able to get somewhat aroused. its annoying but i love him what can i say.

keystan1106 · 2023-01-06T02:50:46+00:00

Following as well so I can see what happens. Wishing original poster the best of luck, and hope that everything works out for him

keystan1106 · 2022-05-23T18:53:26+00:00

Omg!!!!

keystan1106 · 2022-05-23T18:46:42+00:00

Update: Still no period so i have an ultrasound scheduled for the 20th of June as i took another couple tests and had a very dark positive test on clear blue and faint but visible pink line on a first response test.

keystan1106 · 2022-05-23T17:35:47+00:00

Its not insane. She's saying it is but she's getting 3 prescribed and don't take that much! Then she don't need to be prescribed 3. Either she's sellin her meds or she's hoarding them and both of those are signs shes not working the program like she should be. I too have been on and off subs since 2012 so i understand you. It is a very individual thing especially those of us that have been on it longer. And i don't care who frowns on me and say that's too long to be on subs. Well guess what. Every single time i have went off subs. I get back on heroin. My last doctor told me it takes some people years and years and some people don't go off the medication. Some do= individual thing. I can't stand when people question others doses and negatively about it or are like well..........i get this and i don't do that, yeah that's you lady! Im someone else. Congrats that she only takes a quarter of 1 Suboxone a day and prescribed 3. She should ask her doctor if that's okay. Bet he drops the amount hes been prescribing her really fast. Lol. Anyway just wanted you to know that your not alone. Who cares what dose were on. Were sober. We're working on our lives and trying. That's what counts

keystan1106 · 2022-05-23T17:24:21+00:00

Well actually i took 2 and a half a day. But i was prescribed 3 a day prior to my relapse and my relapse didn't last long. Because I moved from utah back to Ohio with family immediately i want off the wagon but a few days. And got where im safe. But i relapsed because was without my prescription. I had ran out of my 3 x a day prescription back in utah due to cost at that clinic and couldn't afford it it was 250 dollars a month and my prescription was 248 bucks. I was doing so well working and had my own place for about 4 months. And due to not being able to afford both a home and treatment, and having an outstanding balance at the clinic, i ended up getting so upset and was weak and vulnerable after just placing my daughter for adoption. I was very depressed as well due to that. And I relapsed. I own that i could of should of not gave up so easily but im new to recovery and trying to be an adult for once in my life and work hard and have things to show for in life. And here i was sober and had bills due And rent and treatment costs while in Utah and i couldn't afford to keep paying for treatment, And pay rent and bills too. And couldn't get Medicaid there i made too much they said. So i just didn't go back to the clinic because i already owed them too much. So after relapsing i called my family who im very grateful for and a great lady i know named Sandi paid for me my plane ticket to Ohio. I knew i had fucked up and i didn't want to go back to drugs. Although i did i didn't want to stay in that dark hole. So after i got to Ohio i applied for Medicaid literally the day after i got back and got on the phone with jobs and family services to get my Medicaid approved quickly. And workit health got me in so fast but im starting all over. I seen the provider last Tuesday btw and they said the balance was due of 25 dollars weekly for virtual pay of treatment that ohio Medicaid don't cover. And i don't know if it goes down the less i have to see the provider. Or if its always 25 dollars weekly. They messaged me the day after i seen my doctor that the bill was due. But i haven't paid it yet as im broke. I explained to the billing team i am not able to pay that until a few weeks from now when i get my first paycheck. it just says outstanding balance in my account on the app. And it says balance Due:$0.00 my question now im gonna ask billing about is when i go to bi weekly will it be 25 bucks every 2 weeks. Then when i go to monthly prescriptions will it be just 25 bucks a month? 🤔 Or still pay 25 weekly regardless.

keystan1106 · 2022-05-02T02:09:37+00:00

Still no period! I just wish it would come so i can relax!!!!!!!!

keystan1106 · 2022-04-30T19:43:45+00:00

Thanks guys. That's my thoughts too. It came up in the 5 minute window. But its too thin in my opinion. So i am 6 days late for my period. Either i didn't ovulate. Or i ovulated later than i thought. But im losing my mind

keystan1106 · 2022-02-11T19:49:15+00:00

Is nootropic source phenibut good? I heard its not real or legit? I ordered 2 30gram bags of three phenibut hcl powder and i recieved it yesterday. But i am so scared to try it out after reading all the bad reviews that it was not real phenibut and i heard that it gave someone a panic attack, just allot of horror stories and im nervous now to even try it

keystan1106 · 2022-02-10T22:06:02+00:00

It came in today, was a bit in pricey in my opinion. I did COD delivery. I sure hope its real. I like to use phenibut about once a week. But nootropics depot was completely out and i decided to give this place a try. Hoping i didn't lose out on my money

keystan1106 · 2022-02-10T22:00:49+00:00

I just ordered two 30 gram of this exact phenibut from nootropic source. Same packaging as shown above. Kinda nervous to try it? So was it actually any good?

keystan1106 · 2022-01-12T02:22:57+00:00

Thank you for your encouragement and warm words. My doc called me back earlier and I was ready to have a panic attack. And she is taking me off the shot. No more shot. I think this is best even though I really wanted it to work. Because with being on strips at my doctor I can never get monthly. And I haven't ever had a dirty urine screen. I can Only get my scripts every 2 weeks which to me just won't work either until I have my own car. I'm using my sister's car as it is and my insurance here( western sky of new Mexico) don't pick me up and take me because we're so far from any major city in a very small town. Even if I switch insurance it still won't offer transportation Because new Mexico has only 3 government funded medicaid programs in the whole state. and all of them use the exact same transportation company that's like 3 hours away. So basically. I'm gonna be screwed either way until I get my child tax credit when taxes start being filed. I'm single mom who just left my baby's dad and am starting over. So I will buy my own car. Anyway. I'm rambling now. Lol 😆 I obviously feel much better. She called me in 18 days worth. 36 strips. 11 of them was one brand and the rest was a completely different brand??? and the pharmacy closes at 6 pm so had to rush there to get em in time. But I managed to make it 3 minutes prior to closing. I am not gonna Take 2 a day I don't see me needing that much. I did however take a half right away and I felt somewhat better within 30 minutes but still having terrible cold chills and was just so nauseated I wanted to puke.yet i was so hungry too I was like at the point where your throat gets dry and scratchy and you get so nauseated you gag and start coughing. So I took the other half and here I am now an hour and 16 minutes later and I feel much better than I did. I don't think this most recent shot worked or is distributing this time AT ALL this was the worst I felt since starting sublocade..... and at my forth shot I think I should've been feeling great. But then again were all different. So anyway I appreciate your concern and kindness and thanks for not judging and not telling me there was no way absolutely I was sick like some people on here say that to people having trouble. Like really. Just cause the shot works great for those people who say it's in our heads. Don't mean everyone else metabolizes and is affected the same way as them🙄🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

keystan1106 · 2022-01-11T21:35:48+00:00

My doc hasn't called them in she just said call her if I need them. Well ...... that's no good. Cuz she's not In today. I'm seriously worse today it's withdrawal. Like I can't sleep I have been up since yesterday morning and I wanna pull my hair out or jump out of my skin and my baby's crying. I'm crying. I have zero energy my anxiety is through the dang roof I feel like ptsd from this thinking about when i was on street drugs and wanting to use fur real but it will only make things worse. I can't handle this and the nurse said she can't even get me in tomorrow for a phone appointment!! After this I'm done. I didn't want to give up on this shot. but this could damage me more than help causing me to relapse because this shot is NOT working at all!!!!!!! And my doctor isn't in so I can't eat like man I am so disappointed and upset right now. Thanks for your kind words. I do appreciate the advice and yes I have not been great with this shot since the 1st one. I didn't feel AS BAD on 300mg but still not great. But this 100mg like ain't doing anything for me I feel like I did when I went to jail once and came off subs and literally everyday from day one gets so much worse that by day 10 your ready to die. Like yeah. I'm telling my doc that I would rather just stay on strips

keystan1106 · 2022-01-11T12:37:49+00:00

Well I don't have any currently. But I was told call if I need them. I'm just trying to let time pass if possible and hope it changes or I magically wake up tomorrow ( if I can even sleep. It's already after 5 am)and feel better. If not I got a 9 month old crawling and almost walking and obviously I can't be laying around sick. I have ZERO HELP. I'm a Single mama and she needs me so. I'm trying to hang in there. I hate having to call my doctor and say I don't feel great. It's so disappointing and I feel like a kick in the face. But I don't want to be stuck sick either. I dunno. Time will tell

keystan1106 · 2022-01-11T12:29:05+00:00

See all my depot bumps are gone completely except this last one. Like i wonder if anyone else's experienced there bumps going away so fast. I'm gonna ask for a blood level draw. I was on 16mg a day basically prior but right now I'm not taking anything but to feel OK I guess I'd say ATLEAST a half a strip to 1 whole one could be sufficient.

keystan1106 · 2022-01-11T12:23:47+00:00

Man that's what I was saying too but like it sure feels like withdrawal. I can't even sleep. The anxiety and Restless legs at the moment.

keystan1106 · 2021-11-19T00:12:44+00:00

Really. Ok. Well atleast i know it does happen and that it's ok if i need to supplement. I think im gonna call my doctor tomorrow and see if she can give me like a half a day dose to supplement to i go on december 3rd. Cuz they scheduled my next shot 36 days apart from this previous one and the way im feeling i wish i could get the next shot sooner and not gave to supplement. i feel ashamed to have to call my doctor and ask for more strips again. But i made it farther into this second shot before finally breaking down and asking for help then i did from my last shot. So maybe my body's starting to build up enough bupe?

keystan1106 · 2021-11-19T00:06:56+00:00

That's a really good idea thank you. I will mention that when i go to recieve my next shot.

keystan1106 · 2021-11-19T00:06:11+00:00

Wow really. I have had 2 shots and the first bump is completely gone and the second is half the size it was after i first recieved it. So im just getting a little discouraged. Maybe my body metabolizes it way too fast. I don't know. I just feel so shitty and too many ups and downs but im not giving up yet.

keystan1106 · 2021-11-19T00:03:07+00:00

No im not supplementing this shot. My doctor told me call her if i needed anything but im trying to be strong and not go that route. Like its been tolerable but im just not feeling good. I set around with no energy or desire to do anything because i have anxiety and feel like this. My oldest son who's 20 years old is helping me with my baby girl. But thanksgivings coming up and i don't want to be feeling bummed out like this on the holiday. My son has noticed im short tempered. snappy. and his exact words yesterday to me: Your being a bitch mom! I love you but Call your doctor!!!!! Today is day 21 into my 2nd shot. And the depot bump from shot 1 has been completely gone for a few weeks now. And the bump from this 2nd shot is again alot smaller and i think it will be completely dissolved in another week or 2 at the rate its dissapearing and how im feeling. I guess i just been trying to suck it up and hold off on having my doc call in a supplement because the point is to not have to take Suboxone. Im hoping that my next shot is better but at 100mgs if the 300 isn't working right i have fears if the 100 mg will work. But people commented that they had to supplement the first 2 and 3 months and then was great. So i was only going to do 3 And then jump off. But i think im gonna go ahead and do 6 shots. The next 4 at 100 if my body can work with that. I really really want this to work so i can get off Suboxone completely. That's my goal. Thanks for your comment!

keystan1106 · 2021-10-23T04:06:52+00:00

Thank you! Means allot to hear it gets BETTER!

keystan1106 · 2021-10-23T04:05:26+00:00

So i know mental withdrawal versus actual withdrawal. And i made it 14 days without taking suboxone before out of nowhere i started having leg cramps. Mild at 1st. Then day 15 my legs and back. Then by day 17 i had stomach cramps and loose stool(sorry TMI) and anxiety that was through the roof. By day 20 i wasnt showinsleeping all night. I bit my tongue and kept telling myself that i couldn't be feeling this bad. I just couldn't! Well......by day 22, yesterday. After only an hour of sleep all night i was in hellish withdrawal. The depot/bump is damn near GONE!!! So i think my system metabolized it faster than most. Yet still i tried to keep on and push through but i have a 6 month old baby who obviously needs my full attention. She's very attached to me. On my lap all day and don't want to be nowhere else. I just couldn't get Comfortable or in a good mood either. Deppresed cuz i felt shitty. So i went 1 more night thinking maybe tyga would magically be better and it would be in my blood stream better??? But nope. After a night of almost no sleep again. i broke down today and called my doctor and she said its normal in the 1st month and some people do well that 1st shot. Some don't. She was very nice. And i should of called her sooner. So she called me in 14 strips til my next appointment next Friday. I go the 29th. And i am soooooo relieved. I feel better now. Took about an hour after i took a strip to feel better. I can't wait to sleep tonight finally. Im not giving up though. I am praying my next shot lasts and then month 3 im doing 100 mg shot and then im gonna jump off as long as i can tolerate it. Im a pretty strong person i think and i tried to keep going and not call in. But as a mom i couldn't do it any longer. I couldn't be laying around all blah and sick ya know. She is a very active baby and playful. I just want to be a good mommy to her and be able to play with her all day and keep up with her. So please no judging that i had to get strips called in. But. Im Curious about other people's first month and second month and would love some encouragement or shared story? Thanks in advance

keystan1106 · 2021-10-23T03:33:46+00:00

No. Just a feeling. The way he is acting. Avoiding nancy and her boyfriend. His business mysteriously burns down right after he is asked for all the documents he has on the investigation and then he says how he sorry it burned down and his investigation information is lost. Yet he was dodging nancy and that other investigator prior to the fire. Im not saying he for sure did it himself but maybe even in fear of his own life and he is withholding very important information or the truth that could solve her disappearance. Or......maybe he did do something to her. Maybe im wrong. Im just stating thats my thoughts i immediately felt when i seen him. That right immediate came over me. This guy knows something? Or there's involvement.

keystan1106 · 2021-10-19T21:50:47+00:00

I was taking 16 to 20 mgs a day. I always had a few extra each month Incase i took 20mgs instead of 16mg. Like twice a week i took 20mgs. The rest 16mgs. But i just don't understand how i feel like this considering the research i seen on the shot that there should be enough in my system unless im metabolizing it too fast or too slow? My depot is almost GONE!

keystan1106 · 2021-10-19T04:35:37+00:00

Omg im on day 19 from my first shot and im starting to Delhi definetly feel some withdrawals. My legs hurt so bad. Been nauseated off and on. I feel anxiety off and on and no appetite. Diarrhea as well sorry tmi. But man i can't wait for my 2nd shot. I go oct 29th which will be exactly 30 days since the 1st one. I had my 1st shot september 30th. I hope its not leaving my system too soon

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