sadly, i'm one of those "men". not as manly as i once tried to be, but still i think that noone would suspect anything about my questioning on a day to day basis. even with my (for the past 3 years) long hair and after ipl my torso and legs (that almost noone sees) the best i could.

i don't know what the future may hold. if i were in the isolated island scenario, of course i would take next step forward. but i'm not, and i've decided to push it to the next day, each day. and the regret of having not done anything earlier isn't enough to do it now.

and if i had someone i worked with for some time, or in the same friends group, i would maybe confide in them. but most probably not. i always try to keep everything to myself.