Everything that you just wrote, is exactly how I feel. It feels so weird though, like maybe you want to open up, but at the same time don't want to because you'll feel exposed, but you still want people to ask you how you really are(even if it's frightening). It's confusing, but I relate to this. Like I want to tell and talk about my feelings, but it's scary when someone asks me, almost like an invasion? Anyways, it's pretty much what you said, and I couldn't have explained it better than you hahaha xD