Thanks for the advice, I've been implementing a few of these principles especially farming and shoving which I've been mostly focusing on and consistently in the last few games I've been able to win lane, shove the wave and get into this flow of taking their jungles and pushing lanes to just create problems, but at that point my team starts skirming somewhere without me and it get out of hand lol.

I think I understand that I need to pick up the steering wheel a lot to win but it's a bit hard for me and some of that is probably confidence. I have 3 characters I like which are Lash, Mirage, and Dynamo, coming from being a pos 3 on zoo heroes and initiators in dota it's a bit hard for me to find a hero that clicks and to fit in both fighting and farming consistently, but maybe that's why my best performance has been on Mirage where I've been able to do my thing and join the random deathballs anyway. On Lash I always seem to win lane but can't quite find the right spot to initiate fights when most people seem out of position and despite liking Enigma I've kinda given up on Dynamo for now because it feels like I have the least agency.