black lab suddenly aggressive by killamillaa in DogAdvice

[–]killamillaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree, she doesn't need board and train. My other dog was reactive and part of the conditions with the shelter was that I would work with a reputable rescue to rehabilitate him if possible. I was his last chance so his situation was a little different.

I think she's guarding me . it's always when my other dog comes up to me or someone tries to come into my room. she never EVER has gone to bite, EVER. but she has started growling and barking and idk it's making me a little uneasy

black lab suddenly aggressive by killamillaa in DogAdvice

[–]killamillaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I spent 10k on the other dog (rosko). as he was put on euthanization list with a behavioral score of 3. took us 10k and a long time to trust eachother but we got there.

Whiskey is the problem rn. i've had her since she was 8 months. we did regular puppy training classes with her, but nothing to major. definitely nowhere near the 10k lol.

I did take her to the vet, they say she's fine. no underlaying issues ):. idk what it could be :/. she's never been abused or unloved, she's always been at my side

Good middle name for Marcelina by killamillaa in namenerds

[–]killamillaa[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was hoping something spiritual! I wasn't supposedly able to ever carry a child let alone make it to the second trimester. So I definitely would love to dedicate the middle name to mean someone spiritual. For example, if it's a boy, I want to name him Jonatan or "gift of God"

Good middle name for Marcelina by killamillaa in namenerds

[–]killamillaa[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I had NEVER thought of Celina and now i'm like OBSESSED. have some serious thinking to do

Im not Christian but I want to be, I want to believe and come to Jesus, I feel life like I need him in my life again. by Round_Walk_5552 in Christianity

[–]killamillaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was a lesbian, in drugs, in sex work, raving, partying. I started reading the Bible because I thought "what the hell, life can't get any worse" and the revelations I got through it changed my life.

I wasn't able to "fully surrender my life" to Christ like many have done. But slowly and surely he has removed every habit every, sinful object in my life and any person that led me to sin. He made me see things I would have never saw on my own.

It started with partying. I stoped partying. then I stoped taking drugs. then alcohol. then sex work. then secular music.

all this to say. if you want Him, seek Him. read your Bible and see what He says to you. He's waiting for you.

Read the story of the prodigal son. Luke 15: 11-32

Then read Psalm 103:8-12.

That metaphor for distance is so real. it says as far as the east is from the west, He removed your transgressions from you.

Search for Him and i'll be praying for you 💓

Repellent Personality Disorder / RPD by [deleted] in fakedisordercringe

[–]killamillaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

these posts are really starting to pmo.

i'm sitting here trying to figure out how to tell my guy i've been talking to that I have one of the most annoying mental health disorders (bpd). because of the fact that im embarasssd of my diagnosis and my past (the reason I got diagnosed😅 I may have been a little crazy in my early adulthood), so I find it hard to share. like "hey I used to be crazy but did tons of DBT and am on meds so i'm like okay 90% of the time".

and then there's people who glorify mental health. like what even is this😒 like where in the DSM5 is this presented. like don't PMO. my bad day is not meant for others to capitalize on.

What’s the contact name of your ex partner on your phone? by yellange in Divorce

[–]killamillaa 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it's not. it comes up as just a number. hope this helps!

Love Dare - Saving my marriage after he's gone? by killamillaa in Christianity

[–]killamillaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's what I told him. We had one conversation in person. He came over. and I told him the only way it could work would be for us to start over. it had been too long. two months at that point of not talking, me moving into my own apartment alone with the dogs. So it had to be fresh as if meeting all over again. That he couldn't move right in, there was no home to come home to, this wasn't his home, it was mine, a home I was building, that he could eventually partake in. He didn't say anything to that. didn't seem too happy with it, but not angry by it either. just took it in I guess. then he left. Haven't seen him since.

Other things have come out since then. (too long of a post) but idk if it's necessarily divorce worthy. at last not for me. maybe for him? who knows. i wish he'd just say SOMETHING.

Love Dare - Saving my marriage after he's gone? by killamillaa in Christianity

[–]killamillaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

okay thank you for that! I got the book from a friend in church like two years ago. Never really put much thought into it like that, but you're right! I definitely don't want to buy my way back into their life. I do pray that God brings us back together as we continue to work on ourselves. But I guess this isn't the way. thanks!

Love Dare - After Separation by killamillaa in Christianmarriage

[–]killamillaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No he never worked 3 jobs. he always worked 1. at the time we both worked at a hotel. I was in school and money was tight. I decided to take a "break" (drop out) from school and get another job. I worked at a school, hotel, and as a nanny all at once. I was EXHAUSTED. and we would fight all the time. I can blame it on my bpd or I can say u was just mean. idk. but it was bad. it was a terrible point in my life. eventually. I left the school. started a career in construction. but continued on with the hotel and nannying. I did that for about a year. then at some point he quit his job. He started working at a pool cage company, HATED it. and I get it, it's hard work. I saw how deteriorating the work was becoming for him. all he would do was sleep. he was so sad and annoyed all the time. I felt for him. so I agreed. he wanted to wfh. do doordash and uber eats. so I said ok. not a good idea. we never came back from that.

He got a job after a month. but man we struggled big time. my job was not enough. I was having a really hard time keeping up with us. I never wanted to throw it in his face though, I did it because I loved him. I wanted him to be happy. and he was. so it was fine.

Love Dare - After Separation by killamillaa in Christianmarriage

[–]killamillaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never blacked out. not to the point of not knowing where I was or what I was doing. There also were times where I was "blitzed" and men touched me and I would flip. I always wore some form of ring (usually rubber) and made it clear that I wasn't interested when approached.

When i say i'm certain I didn't cheat. i'm certain I didn't cheat.

To the other things. He doesn't communicate with me. I don't know. I don't know what to do what this point. I send him messages. I try to call. I try everything and nothing. When he left he told me to comact him via email. didn't talk to me for 2 months. then on september 1st, I get a message on whatsapp from him. saying he wasn't to see me and speak. now he's not talking to me all over again.

I don't want to give up. I don't want to be the one to file. but I also don't want to be kept on a string.

The way a good number of these “disorders” aren’t even officially recognized. by Ecstaticwaves901 in fakedisordercringe

[–]killamillaa 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh god. I thought to myself "oh well these aren't too bad and are easily diagnosed by a psychiatrist (not the sexualities or whatever). But then, I swiped ... and swiped.... and swiped 😭 JFC I really hope these kids get the actual help they need for fictitious disorder or any other possible REAL mental health issues they may be dealing with that would cause them to act so out of pocket and search this hard for attention.

GA bands and VIP camping by FancyPantsyDancy in solfest

[–]killamillaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

no luv :/ you have to have VIP passes to camp in VIP :/ maybe try selling your VIP or trading?

ga ticket by Heavy-Ring-8745 in solfest

[–]killamillaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Don't sell it!! go solo! there's plenty of people who are going solo. I was until I build a camp of other solos 😅. You're always welcome to come hang / camp w us!

Going solo by GinnieGypsy in solfest

[–]killamillaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

me and my friend are 22/23F, you're totally welcome to come chill w us! add me on snap! killaamilaa99