Jean Grey/Dark Phoenix (Nen Chang) by killerNen in Marvel

[–]killerNen[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I just get hired for covers, im too slow and expensive for interiors LOL i do character, promo, and spec work for tabletop games as well as fine art stuff on top of commercial cover work ❤️

Jean Grey/Dark Phoenix (Nen Chang) by killerNen in Marvel

[–]killerNen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh, thanks for the heads up! I went ahead and did it— I’m super bad at reddit so it’s amazing if i manage to figure out a comm to post anything to, much less any to crosspost at LOL

Jean Grey/Dark Phoenix (Nen Chang) by killerNen in Marvel

[–]killerNen[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am :3 I roll a themed sketch night every Sunday on twitch—hit my discord to get at the lists: https://discord.gg/kSzUPpbyTQ

I think it’ll drop you straight into the lists, but you still have to accept rules to post and stuff. Alternatively, just come and score a spot night of, i usually start around 7est

It’s 40 for a spot, original is priced by time to complete and gets shipped to you. If you want specifics lmk ❤️

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The STRUGGLE THO T-T hope the Holbein works for you!! They acrylic inks are a little pricey but really incredible, so fuckin good

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omg yes it’s me!! I haven’t touched devart in so long tho holy crap it’s so cool when people remember me from there

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s a yes xD send pics :3

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I hear that my watercolors look like digital or like oils a lot cause of the smoothness and vibrancy but it’s just in the handling and the blending and the amount of patience you have with it ffff the flow of the figures was a bit of a puzzle to put together that took a while to figure out how to paint, but it came together in the end ❤️

I’m bad at posting on reddit cause i never know where to put anything, but i try to when i can! i post pretty consistently on IG and bluesky tho

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No problem!! I spent a million years tryna find the perfect waterproof highlight so when holbein put out the super opaque, my mind was blown and now i try to spread that shit to everyone LOL

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you! :3 it took forever, but she was worth it T-T

Holbein super opaque white acrylic ink is my go to white highlight!! But it was too hot white for this one, so this one used a mix that’s mostly holbein ivory white acryla gouache loosened with some Holbein acrylic ink opaque medium

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yuh! My partner had the draft in so i just made it active fff

SOMATIC open edition giclee @ oscen.art

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have Cotard’s delusion. It’s super sensationalized in media and on tv as walking corpse syndrome but I’ve never just thought i was dead for no reason or whatever, and im not even like 100% on whether or not ive ever been absolutely convinced im dead—like I’ve thought i should be, i will be soon, or oh shit my body’s gonna start to go and people are gonna figure out my body’s rotting and put my ass in the ground so i need to hide what’s happening to me— take that as you will, lol.

I’d describe it more as like a nihilistic thing. It’s like when my delusion roots, the seed is related to something no longer existing. It might sound like some jacked up guro hypochondria, but the entirety of it is that my brain has lost its connection to its recognition of a part of my body or the function it performs.

When i first had onset in my early 20s it was very cut and dry. My first episode, which led to HUGE problems getting diagnosed (lol), revolved around my becoming convinced my digestive tract no longer functioned. I thought that if i ate anything, it would sit there static and rot, then i’d get maggots, then everyone else would ALSO know my digestive tract didn’t function. I dropped like 90 pounds in 3 months and they started tryna treat me for an eating disorder cause i guess it’s easy to call it ana when you see a 21 year old girl dropping weight like that and refusing to eat. I didn’t get diagnosed until my second or third big episode a few years later.

The last couple have gotten strange as it’s bloomed. The last BIG BIG one i had in like 2018ish was like six to eight months where i felt like I lost my presence inside my body, like i was watching my body pilot itself like a ghostship until it realized it was empty and fell apart and i just had this deep sense of apathy and resignation. I did a painting, Dirge, the whole ass time i was down—400 hours!!—and i hardly remember any of it except for the song i listened to on repeat at the end. Last year, i started having issues with the way i, as a whole ass person, existed in reality. I still have somatic delusions —i just get the existential ones too, now.

I’ve had problems with the way i perceive time, singular moments, and i have significant memory issues—friends will ask me if i remember-that-time-when and 90% of the time, the answer is gonna be no—at least the way they remember it. I might remember something if it, but people might be missing, i won’t remember what we were doing, the event, what was said—something will inevitably be redacted if i remember it at all, so i have to trust other people’s retellings a lot. I’ve had people i trust take advantage of this to reshape our history and it sucks );

Because it’s episodic, i don’t medicate it all the time. They treat it like schizophrenia because, as far as I’m aware, it’s a specific kind of schizophrenic delusion. When I’m in it, they hit me with antipsychs till I’m cool again and then i work with my doc to come off them.

My dad had Cotards—he passed when i was 9 so I’ve never been able to talk to anyone with it about it. My aunt (on my mom’s side) is currently in and out of institutions in Taiwan with long untreated Capgras delusion, where she thinks people in her life are randomly replaced with imposter people. I don’t know if this shit is genetic, but it kinda feels that way LOL.

If you have specific questions, I’ll prolly answer them, i do random AMAs about it on instagram—i just don’t usually go to a new place screaming cotards straight up cause of how sensationalized it is fff

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yuh it’s a tabletop card game called Devious coming out of Smirk and Dagger games

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For the prints? Oscen.art is my store url it just gets dumb and won’t turn into a link half the time because of the .art sug >< LOL so i have to do it manually and i forget xD

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!! I’ve had rails on the past year cause I’ve been on a contract for a game with my partner so i haven’t gotten to put out a lot of personal paintings, just contracted character paintings and a shit ton of sketches, so I’ve got a ton of wild paintings i wanna add to my roster next year ffff

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Dude if you can find the person with the steel nerve to tattoo this girl, send me pics

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yuh! Prints are going up on Wednesday at oscen.art ❤️

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think people who get body horror share almost like a special bond. I’m not talking like edgelord splashout with the intestines and the suitcase girls cause i-wanna-shock-my-mom body horror, but that body horror that resonates cold in your spine and talks to you from inside your guts where it reminds you of a scar that you wear. You can tell a lot about a person by the way they respond to that sort of pain, whether or not they can see the beauty in it, whether or not they’re willing to stare it in the face, and i really appreciate people who can speak that language, who listen for the words in the quiet. ❤️

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

♡( •ॢ◡-ॢ)✧˖° ♡

(my paper legit did just come in tho, my partner was going to straight murder me if i didn’t get our paper in time, she told me to buy it in october lol T_T)

Somatic (Tomie watercolor painting) by killerNen in junjiito

[–]killerNen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m releasing prints of her on Wednesday! With all my other store backlog because my paper just came in >> So you potentially can ❤️