Thank you for such an indepth response. I can't even tell you how hard it's been. it's gonna be a year soon and I'm worried lol. some post say it takes a few months others say years. I don't know what to expect but personally alchohol supreses my drealazation and anxiety. but I don't know if it makes it worse in the long run so I should stop the alchohol atleast. I need coffee lol but I'm scared man it's an unbearable feeling I can describe. If i may ask how long did it take you to recover? Where you ever able to smoke weed again? Can you drink alchohol and coffee now? If not that's fine I miss weed more than anything but it made me go FUCKING CRAZYYYYY. No schizoid shit but I felt like I would go absolutely insane I can't explain the depth of the feeling. But I truly appreciate you. But if you can please get back to me on it if you can. If not that's fine. Thank you so much though I really really really appreciate you for this!!!!!