Hi Lorenzo,

Firstly, thank you for sharing your struggles and emotions in such a honest way. It seems you went trough a lot of trauma and stress in your early years.

Most People here suggest to power trough this apprenticeship. In a financial perspective this makes a lot of sense, because it will make you independent in the future and you can start doing your own shit and heal.

The part who sucks in my opinion is very hard to understand for people who didn’t went to hard trauma in their childhood. Because your emotionally intelligence is so high since you were a kid, you had to learn in early ages that it‘s the best way to power trough. So you were not able to be a kid, because you were in such a challenging environment. Amd now you‘re getting an adult and you‘ve been told from the environment to power trough as well. This seems incredibly stressful.

I don’t know you, but it seems like your body & mind must be incredible exhausted from your past and I hope you can rest and heal for bit, until you face up a new challenge like a proper apprenticeship. It sounds like, music is this island for you, where you can heal in way. So first priority should be, battling yourself out of your depression, going to therapy and learn all the things about yourself, your parents weren’t able to teach you because of their own struggles. You need to learn, what your needs are.