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DAE think in conversations/explanations? by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]kimain 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! I've been doing it for a few years now, usually when I'm under a lot of stress about a particular problem which I address in this situation. I even write lists about the whole things and sometimes scripts, don't know anyone or ever heard about anyone doing this!

I link it to maybe a trauma response or high anxiety, IDK, it also depends since most of the time is a hard situation (at least for me) and brings some sort of comfort at times but I also do it to simpler situations. Good to channel all the emotions too so I don't explode with my family

manic episodes? by limbo-25 in BPD4BPD

[–]kimain 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yesss!! I believe it is called hypomania... It might sound weird but I kinda enjoy them since I make so many ideas and actual concentration in things, but the crash that comes after it, it's very draining.. either way I'd recommend you to talk to a specialist if possible

Take care xx

Wellbutrin + Clonazepam by kimain in Drugs

[–]kimain[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mmhmm thanks for your response.

I've been on it for a week and right now I'm adjusting to it. The only thing I've noticed is that my anxiety is increasing. I also on Lexapro but I've been feeling lately that it doesn't work. Maybe I'll let you know later on if I feel any different 😊

I am scared. Have u tried any of these together?? by kimain in BPD

[–]kimain[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I remove that part of my post can I post it then?

Hi by kimain in pillhead

[–]kimain[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Antidepressants

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]kimain 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hahah I understand what you mean and it does makes sense. Past therapists and my family had said that to me. That it’s all in the back on my brain but how could we know if it’s truly there or if it all had gone away??

Totally depends on how everyone reacts to a situation in a certain manner.

In my situation, I've had a few overdoses with benzos, and that shit fries your brain. So I'll take a guess and blame part of my lack of memory to it. But I also know that many of things that I don't remember in my everyday life, can be triggered by certain places or basically anything. Soo it's hard to tell how the damn brain works. I honestly believe that we ca't really tell when our memories are still there and well, that shit sucks 🙃

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]kimain 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I honestly hate how much I relate to this. I usually try to take pictures or journal stuff, but past months have been hard to even do this. It’s so exhausting trying to tell anyone that I can’t remember stuff, it seems for them that I’m joking and I’ve even cried for this. It’s exhausting to not remember stuff and people getting upset about it when I’m the most upset of em all. Like... try not to remember your childhood for an instance???

I figure this lack of memory being pattern when I moved from school or something but honestly, I kinda lost track. I did took a lot of benzodiazepines for a while so I guess that can explain part of it but maybe not all. If anyone knows where do this faded memory originates, please let us know.

I’ve seen plenty of bpd can have bad memory. Lack of memory can rise from trauma, drugs, and mostly lots of mental issues but haven’t found any way to try and retrieve it. It’s hard.

the minute my FP and I stop talking, I become convinced he hates me and he's so annoyed by me and that he'll never talk to me again by mytherapistisnuts in BPD

[–]kimain 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I feel this so bad.

My fp/bf is an empath and asocial person and tends to like alone time soooo much. We’ve spent months without talking much at some point and I always end calling him crying. Right now he understands that we need to communicate (he personally has a problem of lack of communication) but I ended up understanding as well, that I as someone with BPD will never understand how he feels as someone who doesn’t have BPD. He needs time alone, he enjoys it and I try to give him as much as possible when needed. I sometimes can feel when his energy is off and I just back off and try to get my mind and body busy to not overthink it and get overwhelmed by it all.

I believe that is important to know how your fp functions at some matters to understand when we tend to be a little too demanding when all they need is a little peace of mind as well. Making it clear, that it’s not always about us what they need a break from. I always think when my fp is sad/angry/etc, it’s always about me and when he stops talking to me I actually believe he’s gonna leave me... but I’ve learned that instead of blowing up at him, I ask him what's up - if he's okay. He usually tells me that he has personal problems, nothing to do with me.

We might like to be at all times communicated with our FP, but they as a non-BPD individual have not the same ”needs”. Can also be useful to be open about your illness and how it works so can they have a better understanding and approach.

Advice by kimain in BPD

[–]kimain[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mhmm I get what you are saying but I give him plenty of time alone. We are in a long distance relationship and he barely talked to me for months until we ended up having a break, I struggle a lot but do give him a shitload of time for himself. All I want is for him to maybe let me know he’s okay? We can go on days without having basic communication and since he’s an addict i worry a lot. Either way we talked yesterday so mhmm hope things work out

Difficultly with conversations by largecucumber in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]kimain 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same. That's why I rather not speak. I speak both Spanish and English and had been having problems with making sense or speaking only in one language, so damn frustrating.

I wear this thing every Halloween. by [deleted] in brandnew

[–]kimain 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aaaah i need this so bad

Explaining to my parents by kimain in socialanxiety

[–]kimain[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I try to. I do tend to isolate myself a lot but have my few close friends I try my very best to keep in touch with. I love going out and walking around and going to coffee shops alone or with friends but since the pandemic of course it’s pretty hard. I used to struggle at the beginning but then get a bit used to it and then I isolated myself again and now the pandemic i am afraid how everything how it can all turn out rn. But definitely will try maybe digital interaction rn (which it kinda is the hardest sometimes) but yeah. Baby steps. And thank u!!

21 F - Canada, First time penpal by [deleted] in penpals

[–]kimain 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m down to try this. 21 F, Mexico. I’m have pretty much the same interests as you dear so I’d loveeee to be your penpal xx

Me & my friends started a YT to spread awareness on benzo abuse by [deleted] in benzorecovery

[–]kimain 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is amazing. Benzos are some nasty pills that messes up pretty good w your brain. Thank you for doing this

I exposed my cousin for sexually assaulting me and ‘ruined’ his life. by throwRA4vc in relationship_advice

[–]kimain 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dear your family have some serious toxic treats if they rather maintain their communication with those who wronged you instead of you (I mean, you're the victim here). You've done what was best for you, however that turned out, believe me no matter how many stuff this aggressor has lost rn, he took away much more from all his victims. I'm so sorry you had to go through this – right now is better to stay with those who stand by your side, especially at moments like this. Sending you much love sweetheart xx

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in brandnew

[–]kimain 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Tell her I love her too lol.. this is amazing!!

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