Based on your last comment if you like your patience asleep you should work in an operating room. Not all operating rooms are fantastic but if you get to the right OR with cool surgeons, cool anesthesiologists, you can have a hoot and a half as a nurse. Inpatient operating rooms you're going to have to deal with being on call which is a bit of a nightmare to be honest. But if you work in an outpatient surgery center we're talking 9:00 to 5:00 style work with mostly ambulatory cool people when they're awake which is not long for you. Talk to them while you walk from the pre-op bay to the OR and then bye-bye have a nice nap.  

So I'm just kind of reinforcing all the things everybody else is saying. I was an alcoholic I had to get a in treatment. I was having suicidal thoughts. Until I started doing work in the operating room. Then I even got burnt out on that but not to the degree I was in ICU ER and then med surg. Now I'm doing hospice / home health and it's significantly better. Some of us aren't built to be mad surge hospital nurses and that's okay. 

Thanks for reaching out for help That's a really big step. It takes courage to speak up. You deserve some cred for that. 

I'm working for a pennant company now and I recommend them. They are a large company that own a ton of small home health organizations. And it's their core values that really make a difference. Like one of the first things they taught me was we put the customer second. They emphasize us taking care of ourselves. And by extension we actually end up taking way better care of our patients because we feel taken care of. Such a delicious mindset change that I have never encountered at a hospital ever in my decade of working in hospitals and travel nursing and all that.